Dreams and Heartaches

2012-01-04T21:19:00.000+08:00

I FEEL SO ALONE.

I hate this. I need to stop being so needy.

saw this somewhere && i just had to repost

2011-10-05T20:42:00.000+08:00

ANG MGA BABAE.....

1. Moody: Inborn na sa mga babae to. Kung badtrip kami, wag niyo nang sasabayan.

2. Pag sinabi naming nagtatampo kami, lambing lang katapat: Yung salitang tampo way lang namin yun para sabihing lambingin niyo kami. Konting I love you niyo lang, okay na kami.

3. Gusto namin yung palagi kaming kino-compliment: Pag may bago sa itsura namin, gusto naming mapansin niyo. Kasi nakakataas ng self-confidence namin yun.

4. Pag napansin niyong naging sersyoso yung mga text namin, may mali: Kapag ganun, may nagawa kayong di namin nagustuhan. Kaya be alert. Kapag sinabe naming wala, meron talaga. Nahihiya lang kami. Kaya pilitin niyo kaming sabihin sa inyo. At pagtapos naming masabi, konting lambing lang. Back to normal na ulit.

5. Selosa kami: Kaya iwasan niyong makipag harutan sa ibang girls. Lalo na sa harapan namin. Pero may ibang babae na tahimik lang kung mag-selos. Inoobserabahan lang kayo. Pero kapag napuno, simula na ng away.

6. Kaming mga babae, normal lang ang ma-attract sa mga gwapo: Hanggang tingin lang kami. Kasi hindi naman na namin makikita ulit. Ma-attract man kami sa 1M lalaki, ang puso namin ay para lang sa tunay naming mahal. Ganun din naman kayong mga lalaki. Kapag nakakita ng maganda at sexy. Magaling lang kayong magtago.

7. Kaming mga babae, pinagmamalaki namin yung mga mahal namin ng hindi nila nalalaman: Katulad nalang sa mga GM (Group Message), Facebook at TUMBLR.

8. Ayaw namin sa mga manliligaw na nagmamadali: Yung tipo ng mga lalaking laging nagtatanong kung kailan ba namin sila sasagutin. Naiirita kami. Kaya dapat maging matiyaga kayo kasi dun namin nalalaman kung sino talaga kayo.

9. Kapag malungkot o tahimik kami, gusto namin ng yakap galing sa inyo: Kasi iba yung pakiramdam kapag hawak niyo na kami. Gumagaan yung pakiramdam namin. :">

10. Gustong gusto namin yung mga lalaking malaki ang respeto samin: Yung tipong pag ayaw namin magpa-kiss, hindi niyo gagawin. Instead, lalambingin ka na lang sa ibang paraan. Ang pinaka gusto naming kiss, kiss on the forehead. It symbolizes, respect.

11. Ang nagpapa-turn on samin ay yung lalaking protective: Yung kapag kasama namin kayo, feeling namin safe na safe kami. Walang mangyayaring masama at hindi kami ilalagay sa panganib.

12. Ayaw namin sa lalaking hanggang text lang: Kung mahal niyo talaga kami, patunayan niyo sa personal. Wag yung sa text lang kayo magaling. Magpaka-lalaki kayo!

13. Sobra kaming natutuwa sa mga lalaking ma-effort: Yung kahit walang special day, feel mo eh special ang araw araw niyo. Kasi sobrang nakakatuwa kapag ang lalaki laging nagpuput in ng effort. Feeling naming babae eh, isa kaming prinsesa.

14. Ang pangarap naming mga babae yung ipapakilala kami ng mga lalaki sa kanilang mga barkada at lalo na sakanilang pamilya: Feeling namin kami na yung pinaka maswerteng babae sa mundo. Kasi iilan lang ang lalaking naglalakas loob ipakilala kami sa parents at barkada nila. Yung iba kasi nahihiya. At feeling din nmin angkin na angkin na namin ang isang lalaki dahil nakilala na namin ang mga taong bumubuo sa buhay niya. :)

15. Magaling kaming mag-pretend: Kapag nasasaktan kami, nagpapaka-manhind kami. Kapag may nakitang di maganda, nagbubulagbulagan kami. Kapag may narinig na mali, nagbibingibingihan kami. Pero kapag mag-isa nalang kami, dun kami naglalabas ng sakit. Dun kami umiiyak. Kaya ang pangarap naming lalaki is yung sensitive enough sa mga nararamdaman namin. Yung kayang magtanong hanggang sa umamin kami.

:)

2011-09-16T21:52:00.001+08:00

My heart skips a beat every time we meet. It has been a while and now your smile is almost like a memory, but you're back and I am fine, because you're with me and I am in love with you. And I can't find the words to make it sound unique, but honestly, you make me strong. I can't believe I've found someone this kind. I hope we carry on because you're so nice and I'm in love. With you.

Hello there, do you need to be a University of the Philippines student/alumna/teacher for you to get accepted on RareJob? Can't other schools apply?

2010-11-09T14:57:00.001+08:00

THIS IS FOR EVERYONE HAVING THE SAME QUERY:
yes, you need to. it is a requirement.

ask me anything! :)

how many days do i have to wait for an interview?..because i alredy registered about a week ago. I just badly needed a part time, I hope that this question of mine will be answered soon. Thanks.

2010-10-19T12:43:00.001+08:00

it depends on the interviewers. they get many applications everyday so it takes a bit of time to run through every profile. you can try to email them though.

ask me anything! :)

2010-08-16T18:09:00.000+08:00

When I'm in love, every new day is better and brighter than yesterday. The people around me all seem to be happy. It's like the whole world is in love. The weather seems so fine and no matter where I go, I could smell chocolates and flowers and it makes me all giddy and fuzzy inside.

But it isn't always like that.

When I'm in love, I get sad so easily. I become paranoid, irrational, and insecure. My world would revolve around that person and I would forget about who I was back then. I become someone else. So, even if it seems silly, I guess I'm not really good at falling in love. :)

2010-07-12T21:45:00.000+08:00

and I still don't know why.

should i? or not? what?!

2010-07-11T22:12:00.002+08:00

This is CONFUSION at best.

note to self

2010-04-26T20:17:00.000+08:00

never EVER stalk 'em again!
you'll be happier that way :)

there is such a thing as...

2010-04-25T18:29:00.000+08:00

NYAHAHAHA :D

busy!

2010-04-17T20:47:00.000+08:00

It has been an amazing day for me. Our 5-day training for our summer internship at the Department of Health has just ended, and next week we'll be in full blast as peer educators for the youth of Davao City.

6,000 youth respondents. BRING IT ON! :)

Oooh La La

2010-04-13T21:32:00.000+08:00

Finally! I have something to get busy with this summerrrr.

For 47 days, I will be an anti-HIV/AIDS advocate for the Department of Health. For the duration of the internship (oh yes, I am an *coughs* intern), we are going to promote the prevention and control of HIV and AIDS as well as STIs or Sexually Transmitted Infections (or otherwise known as STD, I guess). Our trainers told us there are going to be field exposures, media(!) exposures, and a whole lot of activities. Not bad as an exposure for a Biology student and future med school student like me. And oh, the "benefits". HA HA. Now this is what I call, "productive summer". Hahaha

Getting myself busy this summer is also one way of thinking of stuff other than minding the 700-mile distance from...hahaha. Five more weeks. I guess it's easier to swallow this time. :)

And as a part of my advocacy, I remind all those who pass by my blog and read this post to, by all means, be aware of HIV, AIDS and STIs. Numerous articles can be found on the Internet, and it's really easy to Google them. Prevent yourself from getting the virus by using the right methods and by practicing fidelity. Always remember, an ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure.

drying the tears that never came out.

2010-03-31T06:36:00.000+08:00

T_T

this is far too much. i've had enough.

Face and Health

2010-02-23T07:01:00.000+08:00

I found a very good article on health. Your facial features might have something to do with your health conditions.

http://health.yahoo.com/experts/drmao/24009/what-your-face-reveals-about-your-health/

Maybe that's why I constantly have a pimple on my nose.
Oh, just read on.

Love can be so boring.

2010-01-14T19:59:00.001+08:00

Once you must fall in love with your best friend, ruining your friendship forever. This will teach you who your true friends are, and the fine line between friendship and more.

Once you must fall in love with someone you believe to be perfect. You will learn that no one is perfect, and that you should never be treated as any less than you deserve.

And once you must fall in love with someone that is exactly like you. This will teach you about who you are, and who you want to be.

And when you're through with all that, you learn that the people who care about you the most are the ones that you hurt, and the ones that hurt you are the ones that you needed the most. But most of all, you learn that love is only a concept and is not something that can be defined, it is different to each person that experiences it. And you will learn to respect each and every person on this earth, knowing that everyone only wants to be loved.*

Naranasan ko na palang ma-fall in love three times na kagaya ng nakasulat diyan.
At sa lahat ng napagdaanan ko, masa-sum up ko lang pala in 5 words ang ending.

Nakakapagod.
Nakakatamad.
Ayoko na. Muna.

*Nabasa ko ito somewhere at nakalimutan ko kung anong url, basta blog yun, kaya salamat sa pag-post nito. :)

formspring.me

2010-01-14T09:12:00.001+08:00

anything? really? why do you look pretty? haha :))

i got it from my mama
i got it from my mama
i got it got it!

haha xD

ask me anything! :)

This One's For You

2010-01-10T22:10:00.002+08:00

No one should ever ask themselves that: "Why am I unhappy?" The question carries within it the virus that will destroy everything. If we ask that question, it means we want to know what makes us happy. If what makes us happy is different from what we have now; then we must either change once and for all or stay as we are, feeling even more unhappy.

Paulo Coelho

It's always your choice, dear, no matter how difficult life could be. :)

formspring.me

2010-01-09T18:27:00.001+08:00

relationships like? boyfriend? M.U.? are you? :)

hmm...bakit? liligawan mo ako? haha i think i know you dude. :P

ask me anything! :)

formspring.me

2010-01-09T18:26:00.001+08:00

do you have a boyfriend now?

why? :)

ask me anything! :)

Cheap Thrills! :D

2010-01-08T15:00:00.000+08:00

At this moment:

Beef and Mushroom Pasta + Bread Pan! + All-American Rejects playing in the background

PURE BLISS! :D

formspring.me

2010-01-07T20:55:00.001+08:00

Hi Lyle! himo nag tumblr!

sayang akong Blogspot. hehe i dunno. undecided. xD

ask me anything! :)

Katy Deschanel!

2010-01-02T17:45:00.000+08:00

HA HA! and I thought I was the only one who noticed it. :))))))

Untitled

2010-01-01T23:03:00.000+08:00

I'm confused.
I don't recognize the person staring back at me in the mirror. No, not anymore.

I'm such a bad girl. :\

QOTD #2

2009-12-31T10:35:00.001+08:00

Oh, I should have never laid eyes on you. Now I'm tangled up, what can I do?

Tangled Up, New Found Glory

GPOYW!

2009-12-30T14:35:00.000+08:00

One of my few attempts to look like a goldfish. Er, FAIL??

500 Days of Summer

2009-12-29T14:17:00.003+08:00

Haaaay...I love this movie. *sniffles*

Things I'll Never Say

2009-12-28T22:14:00.000+08:00

A few days from now we'll be approaching the new year. So...I'll be grabbing all the chance I could get to write these down...and ONLY to write these down. I'm bothered with a lot of things that's been going on in my life now, but I just don't have the guts to tell these stuff right in front of these people.

Person #1

You know what you are to me. I promised myself to take care of you, to be a good person to you, to be your confidante. I am very proud to say that we've managed to survive all the storms that came upon us (and you know how huge those storms were!). I guess things just blew out of proportion. Maybe there were little things that we have overlooked and they turned out to be huge potholes along the way. My, we fell hard onto them, and the scars that remind me of what used to be were ripped open again, and this time it bled hard and it doesn't stop. But through time I know we will all be fine, and we'll all be smiling towards the end. The scars will heal again and it will become a reminder to us how we've fought this battle. Please take care of yourself. I hope you'll have a good life ahead with your family. I miss you...and I meant it when I said I love you forever.

Person #2

We were happy people. We've been through a lot. You always stood up for me whenever someone's hurting me. You were always there whenever I needed you and whenever I need to hear your voice. You tried to be the best for us and I appreciate it so much. But when I found out it was my turn, I didn't do anything. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for not being there. I'm sorry I just stood still. I'm sorry for pretending as if nothing happened. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't want you to let go, to forget everything. I want you to know that I would anything to make up for my mistakes, so that you would stay. I'm really sorry. I hope you'll have a good year ahead. I love you.

Person #3

How have you been? It's been a long time since I last heard from you. I just want you to know how much I appreciate everything that you did for me. You taught me things I never thought I'd be really interested in. I am just so lucky to have you in my life. Anybody would be very lucky to have you in theirs, too. Sorry for all the bad things I did to you. You'll always be in my heart. Happy New Year.

Person #4

Hey you. You know how I'm always quiet whenever something's up. At times, I get rude, acting like you're not even there. When it comes to that point, it only means that I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know how to approach you without you getting mad again. That's why I don't talk. I'm sorry if I can't be perfect for you. There are just some things that I'd like to do my way and you simply don't like them. I couldn't even tell you why I do those. There are so many things I'd like to say to you, to tell you how I really feel. Words just don't simply come out of my stupid mouth. You're the best person that God has given me. I love you. Happy New Year.

I realized they might not be able to read these. Haaay...but at least I've let it all out.

QOTD #1

2009-12-27T19:22:00.000+08:00

Every night you cry yourself to sleep, thinking why does this happen to me? Why does every moment have to be so hard?

Won't Go Home Without You, Maroon 5

new year's resolutions are so overrated.

2009-12-27T18:02:00.002+08:00

i guess this belongs to YOU.

2009-12-26T22:25:00.000+08:00

(Thanks for Nothing)

Oops! :D
and to everyone else, thanks for all the lovely gifts...the precious time you shared with me. awww.
Happy Holidays!

and it was all yellow.

2009-12-26T19:14:00.001+08:00

As you might have noticed, I changed my layout. Again.

Madali na pala akong magsawa.

Maybe it's just right to give my blog a 'facelift' so we'll both be on the same track. No, I didn't get a facelift, I'm just trying to make a cool change. New life for the new year to come!

So how's everybody's Christmas? Bet you all had fun partying and merrymaking. Well, mine could be described in three simple words: Busy. Food. Party! [xD]

One Confession: I wore the same dress to three parties! (and it's pretty obvious in my Facebook photos)

ONE. I attended my baby cousin's christening. It's my first time as a godmother and I was thrilled by it. The dress was a bit short and since we're in church, I had to look modest (and look, I wore tights! haha).

TWO. Later that day, I had to attend our high school reunion. It was a house party so it was safe to bare my peau. It was so fun everyone ended sleeping at 5 am the next day!

THREE! Clan Reunion! Our family was assigned yellow. Heck, I had no choice since Mom said she'll wear my kimono dress (which she did). Oh well, it was all about the spirit of Christmas and bonding with the family. No regrets! :)

My Christmas in Photos

Our batch Christmas party. The best Christmas party we've had. Everyone was laughing and having fun as we take away all the stress from school. I looooved it. :)

Barkada! Christmas get-together at Kara's place. It was only us three since the other three were busy. Haha.

Making souvenirs for the clan reunion. We were the host family and mom assigned this to me.

Finished product! :)

Happy Birthday Bro! Eto, simpleng handa namin para sa'yo. Mahal na mahal ka namin! Naks.

How was your Christmas? :)

Pic of the Day #2

2009-12-18T09:07:00.005+08:00

DeviantArt

It's our favorite time of the year. Merry Christmas everyone! :)

free hugs day!

2009-12-10T08:11:00.001+08:00

10 December 2009.

UP Deviance Day.

Free Hugs Day.

Bet I'll give a lot. :)

In Me, Nothing is Extinguished

2009-11-16T21:06:00.001+08:00

My favorite poem... :)

I want you to know
one thing.

You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
remember
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.

But
if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine.

Pablo Neruda

Pic of the Day

2009-10-30T11:38:00.002+08:00

Flickr

I want you.
I want you so baaaaaad..

tsk.

2009-10-28T23:01:00.000+08:00

eff.
i messed up with my layout again.

semBROKE

2009-10-26T23:01:00.004+08:00

^ The status message of a friend in YM that inspired me to write this post. It's only been a week of 'sembreak' and I'm already broke. There were so many places to go, so many people to meet, so many things to catch up with. But after writing this introduction, my mind went through playbacks and I was smiling. Happy, happy memories. After all, I don't feel guilty about partying this break since my grades are better now, thank God. And oh...I need to relax. :)

Sports

Tennis! Badminton! I don't know but I was itching to play racket sports a few days before. Should I blame the adrenaline? Nah. Well, I wish my playmates and I could still do these, have an 'athletic sembreak'. Makapobre lang jud. Hehe

Zabadani

I am not a huge fan of coffee but this place gave me a very nice experience. Zab specializes in layered coffee (which is very awesome), and is owned by a balik-Islam. It's a quaint shop with a low ceiling but it didn't feel claustrophobic at all. What's cool there was (1) the owner greets the customers and takes orders himself, and (2) he tries to suggest a blend that suits the personality of the customers. Mine was layered soda with green apple syrup. It was like Cali, only less sweeter. Well, I tried to sip some of the syrup beforehand, that's why. :P After a few sips, the drink was getting bitter so I sweetened it up a bit with the muscovado sugar he served. Their coffee was good, too, without the brow-raising price. It was pretty hard to decide whether to taste the layers one by one or to mix everything together, which added much delight for me. And oh, I remember something: so...I'm like a layered soda with green apple syrup? Hmm...

Redwood

Nightout. Best friend. Newfound friends. Buckets of beer. Met best friend's boyfriend. Met her cousins, too. Guys asking for names and phone numbers. Us making a fool out of them. Haha.

I'm off to another week of fun and I'm so excited to see what's in store for me. Without getting broke, of course. :)

Detoxify!

2009-10-19T10:06:00.003+08:00

8:32 AM.

I woke up today feeling crappy. This has been happening for a few weeks now and I know there must be something missing: Detox!

Flickr

With an armada of exams and parties here and there, maybe my body felt "abused". Late night gaming + reviewing, more booze, less water, smoke, name it. Toxin buildup I know! Now, I feel so weak :(

Luckily, since it's already our semestral break, I still have time to de-stress and detoxify. No, I can't promise to be a really good girl *hehe*, but I will try my best to bring my body back to its natural healthy state *crosses fingers*. And weeee, I have to-do list already:

More water, less soda. Did you know I only drink water like, 2-3 times a day? Eww, right?
Fruit! fruit! fruit! My brother and I have been experimenting on our dinner meals lately and most of them include greasy, high-calorie food. And no fruit :( I'm so bad.
Sleep! I am a huge fan of slumber, but somehow my gamer self always gets in the way of having a good night's sleep. This is the bad effect of having a Pc right beside your bed.

Well, if you happen to pass by my blog and read this post, come share with me your detoxifying secrets. Who knows, you might be my angel in disguise. :D

Warm Up!

2009-10-18T11:14:00.005+08:00

In the game of life, humility develops.

can't wait for sembreak!

2009-10-06T20:53:00.002+08:00

Last week was pretty amazing.

For three times in a row, I had to wear formal attire. First, I had my informative speech about PETA on my Speech Communication class. Second, I had my defense for the investigative project on Chromate-Dichromate Equilibrium (chemistry stuff that I've done for a million times). Third was my persuasive speech for my Speech Comm class, and which I only remembered like 30 minutes before the class schedule! Thank goodness there were still a few students who would deliver their speeches before me. My speech was about abolishing written exams and why we should do it. Hmmm must be from the stress these exams are creating on me!
It feels good to be a hero for a day. *wink*
I was sooo excited to go home (Tagum) for the weekend. I missed my friends so much...One of my BFFs had her debut party on Sunday and there was an instant reunion! It really makes me happy knowing that we could still bond together no matter how distance and differences separate us.

and now...

I have three exams this week...hooray! NOT. and then, next week = hell week! must.study.hard.
I'm lovin' my new Caroline Gardner theme for Chrome. weee!
After a couple of days of coma, my PC is back in action! sooo happy.
and...I finally posted something here! yay me. :D

Keeps Getting Better

2009-08-31T09:09:00.012+08:00

2007.

I was a college freshman then. I had no idea that there was a cheerdancing competition in UP, nor about how the Biology course took it seriously. I only knew about it during our BioGenesis, an acquaintance party for freshies organized by the upperclassmen. I can still remember that very moment where Angelyn, my batchmate, and I were doing our "moves" for our freshie presentation, twisting our arms and legs like pro gymnasts. The upperclassmen cheered for us and yelled "Cheerdance! Cheerdance!". Our faces felt a gush of pressure, and at the same time, excitement.

On long breaks, Angelyn and I would talk about entering the squad. Lucky for us, there was no initiation nor training for newbies then. Instead, we were handpicked and listed on a sheet of paper for the line-up. Everything went fast--nightly practices were held a few days after the squad was completed.

There was one night where one of the upperclassmen asked us if we felt like we were so pressured by them. We grinned shyly, expressing a meek "Yes". She explained to us how the course lost its triumph by just a few points because of doing three-level pyramid stunts. They were devastated by it since it would be their last win to become a grandslam champion. Hearing her words, we were determined to give our best for the team, and win that golden cup. We were also introduced to other upperclassmen who would be joining the squad. One of them was Kuya Lean, a junior student and our choreographer.

Week after week, practices became heavier, there was even a time where I felt like giving up for good. But I know I cannot, and I should not, that I'm doing this for the team, and that this is one of the greatest achievements I have had. A couple of days before the competition was the most grueling practice of all. Dancing on a wet soccer field, drenched in rain and mud. There was no use backing out.

Approximately 35 hours later, the golden cup would be back in Biology's arms, and they would celebrate their win in a secluded resort.

2008.

Defending our previous win was not such an easy task. We still have to give our best shot at it since all of the competing squads were eyeing for the prize. Some of our dancers graduated on March, but thankfully there were a few recruits. Our routine was harder this time, and the stuntmen were included in the dance routines too. Everything was still moving at a fast pace and we noticed improvements in ourselves like the way we move and the way the stunt guys handle the 'liftees'.

On the day of the competition, everyone was settled in their most comfortable seats around the soccer field. Under the heat of the sun, we blew their minds off. They asked us for a repeat performance, and we eagerly said "Yes!". To add to our triumph, we were even asked by someone to compete in the town's cheerdance competition. It was such an honor because we did not apply for it, we were 'asked'. Haha.

2009.

One more win and it will be grandslam.

The pressure is on, primarily for Kuya Lean. This time he did not act only as our choreographer but also as our overall designer and director. Our routines just got better, stunts are more complicated, not to mention our costumes getting skimpier. Haha. Practices were also held earlier, but this time I did not feel so much pressure. It did not even matter much for me if we are going to win or lose. All I want is just to have fun this time and enjoy dancing and moving with my teammates. After all, I was satisfied with our back-to-back wins beforehand.

We encountered a lot of bumps and potholes along the way. Together with expected injuries and grades hanging on a thread, the costume tailor made his biggest mistake and ruined the design. With only a few days left until judgment day, we had to rush to another tailor to make our costumes. Not only did our 300 bucks (from the ruined costume) went to nothingness, we had to pay extra bucks for a rush job too.

Then came judgment day. As a tradition, all the members of the squad gathered `round to pray, clasping each other's hands, right over left. Everyone was in deep prayer, asking for guidance from God and our beloved Sir Toto who passed away a week before the battle. For the greater glory of God and for Sir Toto...

And then they called in our course. Hearts were pounding, nervous and excited at the same time. Armed with skill and blazing red costumes, we started to rock the stage out. What happened next was what we were waiting for and praying for really hard...

Grandslam it is.

For the third time, the BS Biology course landed champion for the cheerdance competition. Every one of us was more than happy and relieved, even our department teachers and our own Chancellor (who, by the way, is a Biology professor. *wink*).

Everything was worth it in the end--the perennial bruises and body aches, the wasted bucks, long nights spent practicing our routines. And what was most worthwhile was the bond that no one else could ever experience. The competition held us together as one, both the cheerdancers and non-cheerdancers. Our utmost gratitude goes to Kuya Lean for handling everything. I believe that without him, the perception on our course would remain like this: a talentless bunch of nerds wrapped in laboratory gowns.

We have proved everyone wrong, and every time we show them how we do it, it just keeps getting better.

Go Bio!

Blinded.

2009-07-29T06:58:00.005+08:00

“It seems that it is madder never to abandon one's self than often to be infatuated; better to be wounded, a captive and a slave, than always to walk in armor”
- Margaret Fuller

Just when it's nearly over..

2009-07-26T19:17:00.007+08:00

Oh jeez..I wrote my last post in Taglish. My high school English teacher would kill me for code-switching. I could imagine the look on his face if he sees my work in a complete "disaster". I wish he wouldn't accidentally bump into my blog...or you'll find yourselves reading his comment-slash-sermon on grammar issues. (But sir, it's a personal blog *insert excuses here*....)

Aww I miss my "other" world. Back in high school, I was very active in every group or event that basically has English or Communication Arts in it. Essay writing contests, Theater Arts, speech contests, English Club, spelling contests (!), journalism, yearbook editing, name it.

I wonder what would happen if had enrolled in Communication Arts. Would I be productive?

Seedlings Aren't Planted Too Close

2009-06-25T20:09:00.007+08:00

While I was writing this post (and by writing, I mean pen and paper), I realized I'll be alone for most of this semester. Imagine, it has been two weeks already at ngayon ko lang narealize ito. Andami talagang realizations na nangyayari pag nakaupo ako dito sa isa sa mga Coke huts sa labas ng canteen namin sa CSM. I'm used to being alone, but there really are times when you feel like having at least one friend to accompany you. Kahit na katabi lang, kahit walang usap-usap, okay na. But I think there is still a huge advantage. As what my friend told me,

"being alone gives you time to grow"

And as they say misery loves company, ayun na nga. My misery is accompanied by my terrible schedule that looked like this:

Andaming empty spaces which means, more time of being emo and doing nothing but to stare at the people around me. Bestfriends ko nanaman ang canteen at atrium. Swerte ko nalang if there's still a vacant slot in the Internet Kiosk so that I could bore myself with the Web. Naku, grabe siguro ang growth ko nito at the end of the semester.

Ting! May isang advantage pa pala akong naisip. I'll be able to finish my thesis outline in a swift. Andaming time, ang haba ng panahon, promise. At least, when I enroll in Bio 200 next semester, nagrerelax na lang siguro ako and I'll be waiting for my defense na lang. Sana nga...*crosses fingers*

I saw this video on Youtube. I don't know why the user named it as "Trailer" when it's supposed to be a production video. No offense meant, but, it's not a movie, so it shouldn't be a trailer of some sort. Anyway, this vid is about my hometown, Tagum City. And whoa! ang galing ng pagkagawa. Makes me proud. I like how the sound effects go together with the movements especially in the Musikahan part. Sana makahanap ako ng video effects like what's shown there. Ayan tuloy, na-miss ko nanaman ang Tagum T___T Anyway, enjoy the video!

Thought to Ponder

2009-06-23T21:44:00.003+08:00

While I was waiting for a tricycle on the corner of the bakery in our area, I heard a baker's helper complain:

"Alam mo pare, nagsisisi ako. Sana umayos nalang ako nung nag-aaral pa ako. Sana hindi na lang ako nagbulakbol. Kung nag-aral lang ako ng mabuti, eh di sana hindi ako nagmamasa lang ng tinapay ngayon..."

a couple of seconds later, my world became silent. That hit me.

my one and only You.

2009-06-19T21:25:00.004+08:00

"I take one step away...
...then I find myself coming back to You..."

Last night, I once again attended a Praise and Worship concert of my friend's prayer group called reGeneration. She didn't actually invite me to the event, but there were posters on the Freedom Wall of my school (which made me curious, too, because I didn't know that there is a reGeneration member from UP). Their theme for that night was "Discover your First Love". As usual, the reGeneration had a wonderful video production for an intro, but anyway, I'm not going to do a review here about the concert.

It's just that...I miss Him. I really do. Things like the concert I attended draws me closer to Him, and even though there are a lot problems boggling my mind right now, I could still feel serenity and happiness inside me, and I know for sure it's because of Him. I have always been thankful of Him for being my "best-est" friend.

Oh, by the way, they had a remake of the drama presented by another worship group where it shows how a person is drawn farther away from God through earthly "goods" and how that person came back again into His arms.

Sigh, that song by Lifehouse called Everything still makes me cry.

Here Again

2009-05-26T09:50:00.001+08:00

I'm baaaaaaack!
After almost a month of hiatus, I'm free again. Well, almost. :D

rants.

2009-04-28T23:08:00.004+08:00

I don't know where to start. I just felt the urge to write tonight and I'm looking for the perfect intro, but I can't so we'll just let it flow.

I have been busy. Yes, my to-do list is out and about again. "Kelan ka pa ba `di naging busy, ha?", my friends would tell me and I would just laugh. Well, what can I do? Eh sa gusto nilang gawin ko sila eh. Referring to chores. :D

This is the bulk of my summer, I guess. Less parties, less nightouts, less trips, less everything. Again, what can I do? We don't have a helper, so I do most of the chores. I don't have money, so I work. And...I don't have anyone who could help me out with my "something" on May, so I'm completely hands-on with every little detail. Well, some of my friends offered help, but, I didn't accept them. Some details just might be overlooked and I hate it when things don't go my way...

One more thing...I desperately miss my hometown. This city that I live in now doesn't feel as warm and as welcoming as TC. My hometown is where I met the people who would give you the definition of friends. I just miss them. Every moment I look at our photos makes me want to go back through time...when my house would be filled with heaves of laughter during movie marathon afternoons...Friday nights spent driving out in the streets...or the time when we would head straight to the beach penniless. I miss them and I hate it.

And then I pinch myself back to reality, which, is the part that uhm, sucked. This is not who I used be. I've become someone else: more bizarre, less vulnerable. I shouldn't have known until someone slapped it straight to my face. I'm just going through a phase. I hope.

Ang gulo ng post ko ngayon noh? Yun na nga yung point. Magulo.

addiction.

2009-04-25T01:47:00.004+08:00

It's 1:48 AM and I'm still not hitting the sack. I should be sleeping now, right? I'm tired but I'm stuck in front of the Pc. My lips are dry and pale already. Tsk tsk this is getting worse. I better stop.

Summer LSS #1

2009-04-23T20:23:00.003+08:00

Just wanna share with you one of the reasons why I find comfort in music.
I like Nina's version better but I couldn't find it in Imeem.

Steep (Lauren Christy) - Jez Salcedo

back to the place where I belong

2009-04-13T08:52:00.003+08:00

It's always a nice feeling to wake up to a beautiful sunrise, pack my things and go to the place I have loved for a lifetime. The only place where I feel very welcome, and even though it's a small city, it's big enough for me and my friends.

Yes, I'm going home. :)

My UP Life: Confessions and Revelations

2009-04-11T10:11:00.003+08:00

I got this mantra from July.

Worried about getting bullied by fratmen or getting killed in a riot.
No and maybe, yes. :D

Got bullied by fratmen or was killed in a riot.
Uhm...haha :D

Witnessed a riot.
Yes, not in school though.

Made friends with a teacher.
I think so, or maybe I was just assuming?! ha ha.

Was tricked as a freshman into attending a rally / prayer meeting.
Yes, a rally! It was my first time, and it was funny `coz there was only a few students there. We (with some of my batchmates) were just laughing because it was so scripted and whatever.

Wore red or black on one of those wear red or wear black days.
Yes, I did.

Wore red on Valentine’s Day.
Of course. I'm a sucker for Valentine's. Ha ha and I love red.

Wore black on Valentine's Day.
For the past two Valentine's Days in UP, I think I didn't.

Learned UP Naming Mahal.
Wholeheartedly? Not yet. :(

Was an RA (registration assistant) or SA.
No.

Lied or begged to an RA for a slot in class.
Never.

Participated in a there's-only-one-more- slot-are you-feeling- lucky?
Yes! ha ha and I even urged the teacher to give me a slot in his PE class even though it's already full.

Jogged around the campus.
No, just around the soccer field.

Knew at least one fotox lady, manong, or technician by name.
Yes! Madam X and Tiburcia.

Attended university level graduation.
No.

Got an activist for a teacher.
Maybe.

Went stargazing.
At school? Yup.

Slept in the lib.
Yes! Ha ha malamig eh.

Struck up a conversation with a taong grasa.
I've never seen a taong grasa in our campus.

Wrote to/for the Collegian.
No.

Seriously pondered about the identity/ies of the people described in Eksenang Peyups.
No.

Went to the chapel.
In UP? Really? We have one?!

Cut class with your block to watch a movie.
No. I don't cut class.

Went to a Freshman-only concert.
No, wala namang ganyan sa school eh.

Subsisted on just streetfood
Sure, a lot of times. :) It's cheaper.

Learned how to smoke.
HA HA :D

Went on an out-of-town trip with blockmates or orgmates.
A lot of times, for school trips.

Fell in love with a blockmate.
Blocmate talaga? No.

Fell in love with a professor.
Never.

Actually read the book you keep borrowing from the lib.
Yes. Duh, why would I even borrow it in the first place?!

Played cards during your free time.
Just recently! ha ha I learned Chikicha and Tong Its.

Dressed in business attire.
Yes, for defense.

Sumabit sa jeep.
Sure.

Got sung to or sung to someone in class during Valentine's day.
Not on Valentine's Day ;)

Watched the Lantern Parade.
Yes I did.

Helped out a total stranger.
Yup.

Helped out a total stranger because he/she was hot.
Ha ha funny and No.

Learned to stay awake for more than 24 or 48 hours straight.
No, I still can't do that. :(

Got bullied by fratmen and feeling cool wannabe people who were actually losers.
Ha ha :D

Took Wednesday and/or Saturday classes (for UPMin, Monday and/or Saturday siguro.hehe)
Yes, I did. I hate it. Ha ha

Got a boyfriend/girlfriend.
Yes, a girlfriend....what!! Kidding! Ha ha

Took time to read the vandalism in the CR.
I don't think there are even vandals in the CR.

Watched a sexy art film for any GE class.
Yes, I did. I actually liked that movie, not because it was sexy, but because of the plot.

Got held up or pickpocketed.
No. Sana hindi.

Felt depressed because you were not as good academically as you were in high school.
YES! totally. I'm a total loser in college. I miss my old self. :( But that 'old self' was a sad chapter in my life. Sigh.

Did a last minute paper.
A few times. Nale-late pa nga eh. :D

Had spent a lot for 1x1 ID pictures.
No, I have lots of 1x1 pics that I printed and they are ready to be used! ha ha

Got exempted from final exams.
Never. How I wish..

Got exempted from a final exam but still took it.
See previous ^

Got into at least one (org- or council-sponsored) adventure race.
Yes, but it was during our BioGenesis.

Knew where the best restrooms are on campus.
Yes.

Joined an org.
One: joined because it's a course org. Two: joined and quitted :D

Allowed yourself to make mistakes.
Damn, I always, always make mistakes.

Went to the gym in spite of having no PE class just to ogle varsity players/cute boys.
Not because of ogling, but I was trying to get into the varsity with another batchmate. Yeah, really, it was a desperate act.

Took summer classes.
Yes and loved it.

Admired the Oblation.
Uhm, yeah..

Made a video for a project.
No, my other groupmates (if in a group) would usually do it.

Had a crush on a teacher.
Yes! Ha ha

Had a teacher who had a crush on/tried to court you.
No, I don't think so.

Faked sickness to get an absence excused.
I faked sickness but I never bothered to get an excuse slip. Ha ha what's the point?!

Got your car scratched by one of those "Kuya bantayan ko kotse niyo" kids.
I don't even have a car! :(

Went to school in your crappiest yet most comfy clothes.
Yes, most of the time. Ha ha.

Learned how to use the Bayantel pay phones.
What are you talking about?!

Participated in school activities.
Of course.

Dated someone from UP.
Haha yes.

Learned how to beg for a higher grade.
Beg? Naku, kahit na magkanda bagsak2x ako, hindi ko talaga gagawin yan. (tsaka pag bumabagsak ako, di na ako nagpapakita sa teacher. ha ha)

Used your 6 allowable absences wisely.
Yes! ha ha bulakbol-er.

Lived in a dorm.
No.

Had the worst schedule.
Yes! I think I had the best schedule only once.

Not used up all 6 allowable absences.
Rarely. ha ha :D

Was active in your org.
Yes, I think so. :D

Got as many app forms as you can during the job fair.
I've never been to a job fair.

Learned how to cram.
Only once. I don't like cramming.

Sold tickets for (or watched) an org-sponsored movie premiere.
Yes. :D

Saved money to photocopy all of your seatmate's notes.
ha ha seriously?! No!

Had accidentally seen a make-out session.
Would want to..ha ha

Slept in class.
Yes!

Had mountains of "unused" sample exams and/or old testaments.
No.

Resolved to be "better this semester."
Always! and it would always result to the opposite.

Slept during a test.
Yes, most of the time!

Had groupmates from hell.
Yes!

Learned how to work with groupmates from hell.
Fortunately..

Practiced those UP cheers in the first meeting for PE class.
No..

Looked at microfilms in the library or poked through archives.
Slight. :D

Reserved a classroom, AVR, etc. for a class or org function.
No, they do.

Attended the UP Fair.
Yes! Ha ha and the latest one I attended was funny, there were only 10 people in the audience! ha ha

Went to a library other than your own college's to research.
Yes.

Lost a perfectly functioning umbrella.
No, I don't bring umbrellas to school.

Used consultation hours properly.
I don't usually consult.

Went to the Guidance Office for real, heart-to-heart guidance.
Yung sa freshmen thing lang.

Went to the infirmary.
Yeah, only because I need to accompany someone.

Attended class with a hangover.
No.

Drink beer or alcohol while inside UP grounds.
No, but I'd like to try that. Ha ha

Buy frogs for Bio class.
It's more fun to catch them by yourself, which was the thing that I did. :D

Maxed out on the 6 allowed unexcused absences but DID NOT drop.
Yes! haha

Wore slippers to school.
Of course.

Had a professor who smoked in class.
No. That'd be...uncool :D

Flower Power

2009-04-06T19:34:00.007+08:00

Got this summer fashion tip from Style Bible.

This year, the summer season screams: floral!! From sun dresses and paisley tops to playful, girly pieces, it's all about those blooms, dahling. Check out these cute pieces I found whilst surfing:

T Cutout Monokini from Victoria's Secret Pink Line

Summer Night Maxi Dress from Forever 21

Strapless Smocked Dress from Victoria's Secret

Shimmer Flower Burnout Tank from Wetseal

Rose Print Dress from Forever 21

Paisley Halter One Piece from Ralph Lauren

Paisley Trimmed Dress from Forever 21

Painted Floral Chiffon Dress from Forever 21

Mix Floral Sundress from Forever 21

Halter Maxi Dress from Victoria's Secret

Erdem Fessonia Shift Dress from Barney's

Gauze Floral Top from Wetseal

Embroidered Dress from Victoria's Secret

Drape Front Tube Top from Wetseal

Dimension Shift Bikini from Free People

Take a cue from our favorite Gossip Girl fashionistas! Blair Waldorf is so cute in a Peonie Print Silk Lam Halter Neck Bubble Dress from Collette Dinnigan

As seen on the first episode of Season 2: Blair is in a Garden Party Dress from Alice + Olivia while Serena is in a Geometric Tank Dress from Vena Cava

Aztec Gardens Tank from Free People

Annabeth Cotton Silk Dress from Ralph Lauren

I soooo love summer! Can't wait to get these cute prints. :D

depression could kill.

2009-04-05T01:19:00.003+08:00

This is the first time that I've become very afraid of what might come ahead. Seriously, I've been freaking myself out with what-if's for a couple of weeks now. I've been looking at horoscopes, answered psychological tests and the like, and I feel so desperate and scared to death.

And hell, I would really pop a Valium or two just to ease out these thoughts. Sleep cannot even suffice--it's the last thing that I think about before dozing off and the first thing that comes to my mind when I wake up.

Is it just me or is this...the bite of reality?

sixty days...love it or hate it.

2009-04-01T01:14:00.002+08:00

Another semester is over again. Now I'm itching to do something 'productive' this break that I've wanted for so long. But first, I badly need to unwind.

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Too Many Mistakes...

2009-03-27T13:58:00.002+08:00

Everything that happens once can never happen again. But everything that happens twice will surely happen a third time. -Paulo Coelho

I just finished watching Gossip Girl 2x19...and here's my favorite scene:

Blair is alone in an empty room. Nate walks in...

Nate: Hey...what are you doing right here?

Blair: I don't know.

N: Well here, take that. *N slips jacket onto B's shoulders*

B: Can u remember the first time you brought me here? When we first started dating...we were like...

N: 12 or 13..*laughs*

B: We used to talk about our future... *teary eyed* ...How perfect everything would be...remember?

N: Yeah...

B: What happened? Why did everything get so screwed up? *cries* This isn't how it's supposed to be. I don't know who I am anymore. What am I supposed to do? I feel so...

N: ...lost.

*B stares at N, N sits beside her*

N: Do you remember when we used to watch your favorite movies over and over again? Like Tiffany's and Holiday...it used to drive me nuts.

B: Is this a pep talk?

N: No. I finally asked you...why are you watching movies you've already seen? Remember what you said?

B: *nods*. I like knowing how things are gonna work out.

N: Exactly.

I also have someone like Nate Archibald back at home, except we didn't date at 12 or 13...nor we did ever date, because that would be a complete disaster.

Sigh...Turns out this isn't 'the best sem ever'... :(

Review: Palmer's Cocoa Butter Formula with Vitamin E

2009-03-25T14:35:00.005+08:00

Having unattractive marks all over my body are a result of carelessness when I was younger. Until now, I still scratch those mosquito 'bites' whenever I can and get brown scars later.

One product that has truly amazed me is Palmer's Cocoa Butter Formula with Vitamin E Concentrated Cream (100 g @ Php395). It's a bit expensive for its size but I tell you, it is TOTALLY worth it.

This cream is ideal for softening and smoothing very dry skin. It also tones the skin to achieve an even complexion and can be used as an excellent after-tanning butter. But what I love the most about this product is that it smooths and blends unattractive marks and scars, even stretch marks.

I use this cream at morning and at night after taking a bath and in two weeks I noticed significant changes on my scars and marks. My 'bite' scars became 2 to 3 shades lighter. My stretch marks also became less noticeable. These stretch marks, which formed ridges on my skin, were evened out and they became smoother to the touch. My feet and knees also became smoother. This cream is a really good moisturizer owing to its Vitamin E content. It smells great, too. If it were food it totally wouldn't last a week with me. Ha ha.

Palmer's Cocoa Butter Formula is available at Watson's or at HB1. If you don't want to smell like chocolates, you can opt for a fragrance-free cream (if available).

Rating: 5/5 stars

I Am a Busy Bee

2009-03-23T19:24:00.005+08:00

Monday: rush hour. Not much for me, at least, although I really had a busy day. I think it's my first time this year to actually organize my "Things To Do" in such an orderly manner. Orderly, meaning I allotted time frames for each activity, which was a good idea (I think) to save time. Here's the breakdown.

10:30 AM - Went to school to have a birthday surprise for a friend. We were supposed to give a birthday cake and do some stuff for her but all our plans went downhill. So we ended up giving her a dedication paper instead. Weird. Oh! I have to text her by the way.. *reaches for cellphone*

11:30 AM - Off to Chinabank to deposit money for our internet shop's account. There were lots of coins and my bag felt extremely light after I took them out. Whew.

12:00 PM - SM time. Another bill payment for my mom's credit card (I wonder how she keeps up with these things...). Bought a pair of slippers. Got hungry and ate lunch at Turquoise :) Yummy food and their service was prompt, they served the food three minutes after I ordered it. I was about to exit the mall when I bumped into some friends who also happens to be my schoolmates :) Ha ha whatever.

1:30 PM - Went to the couturier to look for some pretty gowns. Just for kicks :) (Really?)

2:00 PM - Went to another sastre, this time to make some repairs for our batch shirts. I ordered some white shirts online, and they were what I found. They were cheaper (than their Php200-250 contenders), and they somehow looked good on the pictures (Dammit! I was fooled). The seller posted the measurements on the site, so my classmates tried to measure their sizes. When I got the package, everything was two sizes bigger! So there I was at the sastre, telling him to resize the shirts. Such a waste :(

2:40 PM - Davao Dencia's Restaurant. What was I doing there? Hmm.. :P

3:00 PM - The last stop! I gave myself a treat as a reward. Best damn thing in the world: Shopping! :)

As an ending, there were many things that I found out to be, well, either good or bad.

ONE. I'm not really a fan of The Plastics (see Mean Girls), but I can pretty much tolerate them. :)
TWO. Organizing is one way to save time and energy. Yup, I'm becoming good at this :)
THREE. Reward yourself for a job well done. After all, who doesn't want to unwind after a backbreaking episode of life? Make yourself happy. Joie de vivre!

bitterness and ecstasy

2009-03-17T23:58:00.003+08:00

While frequently clicking on new tabs and browsing through some stuff in the Internet, I came across a good website for poem amateurs. They all have good poems, but one struck me the most. Hmm..can relate?!

Love is just a lie

it's hard to feel when you don't know the pain,
it's hard to clean out all the filthy blood stains,
it's hard to preach when you don't have a choir,
it's hard to live when you had nothing prior.
love is just a lie!
it's just game to keep you busy,
something meaningless that makes you dizzy,
an endless fight of fake emotions,
my tears will fill all of the oceans.
you ripped my heart out and left me for dead,
tore me apart, tied my feet to lead,
dropped me in the pit and left me to sink,
in this hole maybe ill get to think.
two hearts beating as one?
it's just a plot, you're just a pun,
if she loved you than wouldn't she be here?
but instead she left you cowering in fear.
love is just a lie!
if it were true than wouldn't you be happy?
but instead you're here, feeling crappy.
love is just a lie!
if it was as great as they say
why does every husband and wife have to pray?
love is a just figment of our imagination,
the grinch's heart grew from inflamation.
can you hear the cries?!
of all the lost hearts and souls?
the one's whose love was their goal?
well that's what happens when you drink it's lies,
it carves you out and burns your eyes.
love is just a lie!
i'd rather hear the truth, i'd rather cry,
than being lied to for the rest of my life.
if you loved me than why aren't you here?
why'd you scar me and leave me in fear?
love is something we cant explain ,
it twists your organs and plays your brain.
it makes you feel like you are sorted,
but in reality it makes you distorted.
when i say i love you, you know it's a lie
so why bother, why even try?
why play me? why leave me for dead?
it's all because of what you said.
you said you loved me and that was a lie,
if it were true wouldn't i still be alive?

-Shortney-

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Review: The Pink Panther 2

2009-02-22T16:28:00.002+08:00

RATING: 2/5 stars

The sequel to Inspector Jacques Clouseau's hilarious adventures in the first movie was sort of...lame. There were only a few scenes where I had a decent 'laugh'. The plot is predictable (diba Ate Reg? hehe), and so are the jokes. It's as shallow as those teeny detective movies we've seen. The casting was even lame, except maybe the pretty Bollywood princess, Aishwarya Rai Bachchan. :)

I haven't watched the first movie, so I can't quite compare the two. Still, I'm curious how Rotten Tomatoes would rate this...

Baga jud?

2009-02-17T17:34:00.000+08:00

It was not what I wanted to happen. But, tough shit, it did happen.

Yesterday, NTLDR was missing. AGAIN. And I had to call my brother just to make him fix the computer. My brother did his best, but I guess his best wasn't good enough. Haaaay.

And now, as expected, the computer was still is not in its tiptop condition, so I did the worst thing I could ever do: to tutor in a noisy, crowded internet shop. Although it was our shop, it was still kakahiya. The good thing was, my audio settings were better (compared sa bahay), probably because of a better internet connection on the shop's server. Also, it has been two months since I last visited this place (haha), so it was a good way to 'bond' with the shop.

So imagine me, with my headset on, saying "teacher stuff", and people looking at me like I was a sick, geeky lunatic. Ha ha exagge! Well, the point is, naulaw jud ko. Thankfully I worked for only an hour, so the freak show was a short one.

Anyhow, I just had the best weekend for the month. Three parties, three nights of pure bliss. All in a row. It doesn't happen everyday, so tinodo ko na. As what Joie's dad said, "Kailangan niyo rin mag-relax once in a while". And my favorite one was, "you need to relax...so you read pocketbooks. When you're in school, during your free time, read more pocketbooks." Good luck jud. Tagalog romance, anyone? Haha jokeness.

Tsk, dili jud ko maka get over sa kaganina.
Good heavens, save my soul.

ting shopping!

2009-02-11T19:35:00.004+08:00

Whew! It was extremely exhausting. I just had my first exam in Trigonometry (yes, first, and it's past mid-semester already. ha ha) and believe me, the exam was way, way more than it's 50-point value. It's like I had two long exams in one sitting! But, thankfully, it's over now. Ha ha.

"One busy day...", I thought. After my 8:30 am class, I was supposed to go downtown immediately to pay some bills, but then I ended up eating in the school cafeteria and stayed there for an hour. It was OK since my batchmates were there and we had to discuss matters about our batch shirt and our Valentines Party this friday. But I was running out of time, so I had to leave them.

Luckily, I was told by my batchmate that my Biotechnology professor wasn't around. Yay! No class for the rest of the day. And so, I went downtown, deposited some money in the bank for our Internet Cafe payables and withdrew some hot cash. I was thinking of buying the most important stuff but ended up having the 'unnecessary ones'. Tsk tsk tsk, I was fooled by the glimmer of shopping again.

Here's the loot:

a pair of Aviator sunglasses
silver necklace with a big fishbone pendant (this is cute!)
a pair of pearl earrings
purple tunic dress
striped black-and-white dress with black short-sleeve cardigan
a black stamp watch
a wide, white studded belt
Lacoste Touch of Pink (!)

Then I got hungry so I grabbed a bite at Shakey's. The total expense amounted to PhpX,XXX.XX! OMG, I am slowly becoming a shopaholic. Although I have a job and I get paid for it, I still need to save up. I'm not gonna bring huge amounts of cash the next time I go shopping, I promise!

guess it's easier for you to swallow if i sat and smiled.

2009-02-08T15:48:00.000+08:00

It's amazing how people could easily prejudge situations, never even bothering to know the real issues behind those stories. It's amazing how these rumors are so preposterous and how they spread like wildfire. It's even more amazing when the one person you confided in and laughed with for a looong time, could become the one person who would destroy you piece by piece, and would even snicker behind your back at the thought of you crashing down.

It's sad. I guess I didn't knew you "that" well.

on skipping classes and tonsillitis.

2009-01-14T14:30:00.004+08:00

...and I skipped my Biotech (MST 5) class again. This morning I attended both my PE and Trigonometry classes but I was constantly dozing off. I wasn't able to sleep last night probably because of the energy drink that I chugged down to make me alert during my tutoring classes. On the other hand, I have tonsillitis and it's a bit hard for me to sleep. I went home after my trigo class, took a nap for 2-and-a-half hours but it wasn't enough so I slept through my whole Biotech period. Tsk tsk, I even promised myself NEVER to skip classes anymore at the start of the year. Oh well...

Since I haven't been writing for quite a long time, I will be doing reviews on three food establishments that I visited during my frequent trips to downtown Davao (bills! bills! bills!). My mother doesn't even know I am spoiling myself with these stuff using her money. He he he...I'll see you soon.

RareJob: Get Paid at Home!

2008-12-19T20:33:00.004+08:00

I am working in an online English tutorial service for foreigners and currently, there are more students than the tutors. So if you're interested, please read below:

From:
Tomohisa Kato
CEO
RareJob

Wanna get 10,000 - 15,000 Pesos monthly by teaching English at home?!

Hello!

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a temporary madness

2008-12-09T19:43:00.000+08:00

Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are.

Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two.

- Captain Corelli's Mandolin. "Love is the beauty of the soul."

hala sige..love napud. skwela sa ui. hehe peace!

gotta get through this.

2008-11-20T23:25:00.003+08:00

A hundred and forty-six minutes ago, I made the toughest decision so far this semester. It may come as a surprise to some but I do hope that in the end I will be able to prove my worth to others and to myself. It was sudden--I myself thought it was hasty. But I'm ready. Yes, I'm ready.

Bloggers Unite for Refugees

2008-11-15T22:24:00.006+08:00

Last November 10, BlogCatalog--a social network for bloggers--attempted to unite its members for Refugees United. Since I am a member of this network, I will do my part on sharing information about refugees, even though I am a bit late to post.

Refugees United is a non-profit organization that helps refugees to locate their families and friends through the use of the World Wide Web.

By the way, what is a refugee?

Main Entry: ref·u·gee
Pronunciation: "re-fyu-'jE
Function: noun
: an individual seeking refuge or asylum; especially : an individual who has left his or her native country and is unwilling or unable to return to it because of persecution or fear of persecution (as because of race, religion, membership in a particular social group, or political opinion).

Countries from all over the world who had experienced war, political chaos, civil conflict, religion and racial issues all have these fugitives. Sometimes, or most of the time I guess, these people were forced into exile to another country and were separated from their friends and loved ones. It's such a heartbreaking scenario...just like in the movies. And when they want to go back, they couldn't. Afraid that something might go wrong again. Terrified of the start of another confusion. Or worse--they do not know where their families have gone. They have no homes to go back to, no one to help them find the people they care for.

I have read many posts of my blogmates in BlogCatalog and found some interesting, sad and heartwarming stories on the life of refugees. You can find their blog links here but I think you can only open them if you're a BlogCatalog member. Let us all take the advantage of using Internet to inform and share about refugees and help Refugees United to reunite broken families and restore hope to people. We may not be able to help them personally but we do have the power to relay the information. Do your part now and make a big step to heal the world!

you know you love me.

2008-11-13T23:54:00.006+08:00

Not much has been going on lately...or so I thought.

Lately, I've become a fan of Gossip Girl. I really have no intention at the first place to watch this seemingly shallow TV series (oops! sorry for that). But then as time passed by and as Aya's lovely GG icons continually bewitch me, I took the dare and downloaded the first season of Gossip Girl.

First thing I noticed was the voice talent for "the" Gossip Girl. Her voice was so clear and crisp without sounding like a newscaster. It was undoubtedly feminine and classy, with just the right hint of mystery that leaves us craving for more tattle. Second, the characters. They have these looks in their faces that would surely make them one of the elite crowd, with a stash of skeletons hiding in their closets. Third, soundtrack. I commend the music director for choosing just the right songs for the right episodes. The songs create a modish yet rebellious ambiance for the viewers. It's either the songs enrage you with Blair's bitchiness or they break your heart with the twisty love stories of the characters. Whatever it is, the music puts you to the extremes.

Although the show went bombs in the U.S. Ratings, Gossip Girl surely has enthralled many Filipino teenagers. Well, was it the gossip thing, the "hot" characters...or what? I'm yet to see more. XOXO.

one reason to view my blog history

2008-11-07T22:50:00.004+08:00

While browsing through some of my old blog posts, I found this comment from a friend (from a post that made a 'stir' in my cyber life). He actually also found this quote on the Web and I was thinking that I might share it with you.

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”
-Paulo Coelho

promise, i won't rant.

2008-10-31T13:29:00.003+08:00

I've been in and out of the house just to pay bills, bills, bills.

I've been the bookkeeper of our small business, a task that I'm totally not into.

I treated myself to a 'luxurious' hair treatment, only finding out that they wrecked my hair.

I've been cleaning dog poop and piss every single hour for a matter of weeks now.

I've been worrying about when, where and how to get money to finance our expenses, which I don't normally do.

I'm still not enrolled for the second semester for a lot of reasons. Though I'm intending to do so, of course, since my registration had already been checked and assessed.

...and hopefully, I won't find myself complaining about these huge responsibilities they gave me. Well, the next time around.

The Elements of Style

2008-10-28T11:18:00.004+08:00

I consider this book as "the bible".

Since fifth grade in elementary up to my last year in high school, I've been part of our school publication, Excelsior (elementary, English) and The Blue Bugle (high school, English). My mom had this good book, if not the best, and I started leafing through the pages. It's a thin book but I think it's not appropriate if I call it a booklet. But, it's "handy".

Everything you need to remind yourself of when writing is packed in this handy book. Strunk and White's insights inspired me to write with simplicity when I thought writing with fancy words and frivolousness made my work extreme. Rather, it only made my readers get confused and irritated with the words.

Whew! What more can I say...this book is a must-buy. It came in handy for me when I was writing my news articles for our paper. And since I am the associate editor, copyreader and headline writer packed in one great body (haha), this book also became my best bud. Maybe the best writers I know also use this book.

The points are easy to comprehend. When you're reading it, it's like you're having an actual conversation-slash-lecture-slash-tutorial with the author. Examples are also given to provide emphasis for the topic. Some also come as witty remarks and can make you smirk once in a while.

And if you still don't have this, and you really, badly need 'fixation', you better get one now.

here tonight.

2008-10-23T21:59:00.003+08:00

So long to you my love
Don't be afraid to run away
I know you'll be okay
Just take your time to find

But I need you here tonight
I need you here inside
I need you here tonight
I really, really need you here tonight...

Made up my mind on this
It’s too late for me to hold you back
Maybe too short or dumb
To cry for you but I will anyway

It's all my fault
To feel this way for you that day
I know I am and I will
Though it's wrong, so wrong, so wrong…

Cause I need you here tonight
I need you here inside
Oh I need you here tonight
I really, really need you here tonight…Oh

Cause I need you here tonight
I need you here inside
Oh I need you here tonight
I really, really need you here

Oh I need you, I need you
Oh I need you here inside
Oh I need you, I need you
I really, really need you here

we're feeling so good, just the way that we would.

2008-10-21T22:11:00.007+08:00

Got this mantra from Mikko.

Was really b-o-r-e-d so MissLylee here made the hell out of it.

1. Put Your iTunes/Windows Media Player/ETC on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS. no cheating!
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5. Put this on your journal.

-----------------

1

If someone says, “Is this okay?” You say?

"Shooting Stars"

If it's the only way to keep you
Then I dont want to break you
I'm losing grip again

[unsay konek? but it's kinda positive, somehow.]

2

How would you describe yourself?

"I Could Not Ask For More"

Lying here with you
Listening to the rain
Smiling just to see the smile upon your face
These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
These are the moments I'll remember all my life
I found all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more

[haha..was that myself?]

3

What do you like in a girl/guy?

"I Want To Hold Your Hand"

yeah i tell you something
i think you'll understand
when i say that something
i wanna hold your hand

[hala ui..]

4

How do you feel today?

"Come On Get Higher"

I miss the sound of your voice
Loudest thing in my head
And I ache to remember
All the violent, sweet
Perfect words that you said

[i don't think it makes sense. what does 'higher' here mean? haha perve.]

5

What is your life’s purpose?

"Smile At Me"

Cause you knot me on my scene,
Every time you smile at me,
At me? at me?.

[??? No idea.]

6

What do your friends think of you?

"Crushcrushcrush"

If you want to play it like a game
Well, come on, come on, let's play
Cause I'd rather waste my life pretending
Than have to forget you for one whole minute

[waaah..kayo ha.]

7

What do you think of your parents?

"When It rains"

And when it rains,
Will you always find an escape?
Just running away,
From all of the ones who love you,
From everything.

[wait..are u even hiding?]

8

What do you think about very often?

"All Dressed Up In Love"

So I covered the pain up
With lots of MAC make-up
But I can't help but blush
Because I'm in love
All dressed up in love

[waaaah. all i think about is love? well, see the post below! haha. :p]

9

What is 2 + 2?

"Beautiful"

Every day is so wonderful
And suddenly, it's hard to breathe
Now and then, I get insecure
From all the fame, I'm so ashamed
I am beautiful no matter what they say..words won't bring me down.

[hmm beautiful equation?]

10

What do you think of your best friend?

"Adore"

I don't mean to run
But Every time you come around
I Feel more alive, than ever

[naks. labyu dang.]

11

What do you think of the person you like?

"Sabihin Mo Na"

Lahat naman tayo'y nagkakamali
Sinong di magsasama
Mgunit papaano babawi sa pagkakamali
Un ang mahalaga

[oooooh..this is serious.]

12

What is your life story?

"Ready For You"

Lord, You take my heart away with Your love
and I am willing to put on my faith in Your plan.

Come and take my life.
Make my soul refreshed in truth now.

I am ready for You.
Take my heart and make me new now.
I am ready for You
to come and fill my soul.

[hmmm..i'm for the LORD jud]

13

What do you want to be when you grow up?

"We Are Broken"

Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And oh the promise we adored
Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole

[centrum..i want to be complete.]

14

What do you think of when you see the person you like?

"I Kissed A Girl"

This was never the way I planned
Not my intention
I got so brave, drink in hand
Lost my discretion
It's not what, I'm used to
Just wanna try you on
I'm curious for you
Caught my attention

[ewwww..never!]

15

What will you dance to at your wedding?

"Let The Flames Begin"

This is how we'll dance when
When they try to take us down
This is how we'll sing out loud
This is how we'll stand when
When they burn our houses down
This is what will be, oh glory

[ngek. napaka morbid.]

16

What will they play at your funeral?

"Middle Middle"

Everyone's alive and well
Yea we're doing fine
As long as there's no time to cry
We're healthy, yea we're healthy still
I'm sorry I can't save you from evenings you spent weeping
Behind locked doors where no one has to know

[:) lavet.]

17

What is your hobby/interest?

"Kung Wala Ka"

Natapos na ang lahat
Nandito parin ako
Hetong nakatulala
Sa mundo, Sa mundo

Hindi mo maiisip
Hindi mo makikita
Mga pangarap ko
Para sa'yo, para sa'yo

[wa may konek ui.]

18

What is your biggest fear?

"I Wish You Knew This Song Was About You"

This bedroom light distracts my stare
I find it hard to keep still
Everything is so still, like this
I wont have to wait for long before I start to see that your the only thing that works

will you stay,keep this evening calm
ill shield you from this night
ill make everything alright

will you make sure the door is locked
We wont have to talk, as long as you are here with me again

[so what's the fear?]

19

What is your biggest secret?

"My Future Decided"

My eyes on all of the above
My soul secure in all you've done
My minds made up
And you are the only one for me

Jesus, savior, in my life you are everything
My future decided, I will praise your name
And I know that I am, I am yours
Yeah, I know that that I am, I am yours

[cute.. haha.]

20

What do you think of your friends?

"Fences"

Yeah, yeah you're asking for it
With every breath that you breathe in
Just breathe it in.
Yeah, yeah well you're just a mess
You do all this, big talking
So now let's see you walk it
I said let's see you walk it

[waaaah! hahahahahah no comment.]

21

What will you post this as?

"Nine In The Afternoon"

Back to the street
Down to our feet
Losing the feeling of feeling unique
Do you know what I mean?

[wooh. walang konek ang iba. had a great time answering this though.]

the unfathomable.

2008-10-21T12:54:00.005+08:00

What is love?

For those of you reading this, I'm sure that you have been asked of this question at least once in your life. How do you define love? Does that definition embrace all aspects of love?

We may not know what love really means, or if it could really be defined. But somehow we try, piece by piece. And then we could connect those pieces, and give love a whole new meaning.

Love is..
being happy for the other person when they are happy, being sad for the person when they are sad, being together in good times and being together in bad times.

It is being honest with yourself at all times, telling, listening, and respecting the truth, and never pretending.

It is an understanding that is so complete that you feel as if you are a part of the other person just the way they are and not trying to change them into something else.

Love is..
the freedom to pursue your own desires while sharing your experiences with the other person, the growth of the individual alongside of, and together with the growth of another individual.

It is the excitement of planning things together and the excitement of doing things together.

Love is..
the fury of the storm, the calm in the rainbow.

It is giving and taking in a daily situation, being patient with each other's needs and desires.

Love is..
knowing that the other person will always be with you regardless of what happens, missing the other person when they are away but remaining near in the heart at all times.

Love is the source of strength..
of reality..of unity..
and of success.
It is the source of the future..
and of passion.
Of sharing..and of security.
Love is the source of life.

Love is forever.

ONE.

2008-10-17T18:17:00.001+08:00

"finally..."

10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, One.
Since I don't have anything to give you on your day (for many reasons), maybe I'll just give you some space in my magical blog. hehe. Anyway, you have a very bonggacious gift already.

Happy Birthday, Ma!

Goodluck. Keep safe always. May GOD Bless You!
(...and I still envy how sosyal your workplace is. haha)

5, 4, 3, 2...

2008-10-13T07:11:00.000+08:00

"i wish i had your strength. but don't worry, everything will be fine..."

haaaaaay life. people come...and people go. nothing is permanent (except change, of course).

haaaaay life. sembreak man unta.

seven.........six...........

2008-09-24T19:53:00.005+08:00

"I smiled at the idea that you were staying...even for a while. You see, I am still fearing the same scenario that happened not so long ago. The time when I did not want you to close your doors...no, never. We were younger then, hearts softer. So maybe we've learned of that and said 'yes' this time. And maybe...just maybe...we're ready."

we've learned since first grade that everyone is unique, but

why do people have to care SO MUCH???

...nine...eight.....

2008-09-18T00:20:00.000+08:00

"i hope you know that i'm really sad we had a spat for two days straight now. you haven't talked to me since and i know you feel bad, too. then i saw you a while ago, your eyes didn't gleam the way they did when you found out your good news. this may not sound like me, but i missed you...and i'll be missing you."

LSS. A song popped in my head. This is one of the few songs I love from this band. Voc's not 'that' amazing, but I love how they construct their lyrics. This is for you, for the one i missed...

Daphne Loves Derby
"Middle Middle"

Everyone’s alive but ill
Let’s take deep breaths
And lock the doors so no one
Yeah so no one has to know
I can say I’m doing well
As long as, as long as I can see the room
from the grave yard shift she turns

I was too ashamed
I was too ashamed
I was just too weak to save her
But she doesn’t care
No! she doesn’t care
Please let me take your pain away for one day

Everyone’s alive and well
Yeah we’re doing fine
As long as there’s no time to cry
We’re healthy, yeah we’re healthy still
I'm sorry I can't save you from evenings we spend weeping
Behind locked doors where no one has to know

I was too ashamed
I was too ashamed
I was just too weak to save her
But she doesn’t care
No! she doesn’t care
Please let me take your pain away for one day

Everybody’s doing fine
Yeah we can stay healthy as long as there’s no time to cry
I was hoping, I was dreaming
That we could someday change

:(

ten.

2008-09-12T23:32:00.003+08:00

"Hey there..I heard you'll be going away for a long while. Unexpectedly, the feeling was bland when I found that out. I don't know why, but I'm thinking if it is because I will miss you or that I'm just used to it. You've always been getting out of doors...and coming back again. But this time, it's for real. Not for good, but I'm sure it's a long wait."

A few hours ago, I attended a worship community. Realizations? Let me see...

I'm always attending Sunday mass, but I guess, it's not really enough. I came from a Catholic school, was a volunteer catechist during my senior year, and had topped the Bible Quiz (hehe, hambugera), but something hit me: it's been a year (and counting) since I've been spiritually active. Since I entered UP, I never had time to work out my spiritual health. Not that I blame UP, it's just that I was 'preoccupied' with things like acads and my social life.

I was happy a few hours ago, and never did I felt tired. Maybe it's time to go back...

miss you, more than you'll ever know.

2008-09-10T00:11:00.000+08:00

...FRIENDS...
know the song in your heart
and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words.

MISS YOU.
Though we're living different lives now, I'm still happy. Because I know for sure, we'll still be seeing each other..soon.

smiling..

2008-09-06T23:59:00.000+08:00

..just because. :)

oh please do intervene!

2008-09-02T08:31:00.002+08:00

OK. I've been waiting patiently for my brain cells to work so that I could type. I have this sudden urge to write today, but what would it be about? Jeez.

I actually have a Botany class today at 8 in the morning and I did not attend it AGAIN for the NTH time. Then here I am, instead of mulling over at those photocopied lecture notes and that heavy, hardbound Chang's Chemistry book, I am much more worried at the fact that I am worried over what to type here. Type, delete, type, delete, type...

And then I'm drowning again at the thought of my acads. What is happening to my school life right now? Reminiscing over those bluebooks cautioned me that my grades are going down, down, down! Where is MOTIVATION and INSPIRATION when I need them the most?

Cheerdance days are over, hell time is here again. Need to cope up FAST! and I must always, ALWAYS remind myself that
I will pass CHEM 16.
I will pass CHEM 16.
I will pass CHEM 16.

No matter what happens, I will pass CHEM 16.

every other tear.

2008-08-31T07:09:00.002+08:00

I woke up this morning and realized i had just made my life more complicated and miserable than ever.

When would I ever learn??
LORD, I need you so much now. NOW.

UP kong mahal.

2008-08-24T21:30:00.002+08:00

I was supposed to answer this mantra yesterday but my family planned to go out since it's Kadayawan. But anyway...

UP student ka ba?
- Opo.

UPCAT passer?
- Ay hindi, ipinagpilitan ko lang ang sarili ko sa paaralang `yon. [sarcastic]

Student number?
- 2007-56*87

Course? Major?
- BS Biology. Sophie pa ako eh, so ala pang major.

Do you really like it there?
- I don't really know. Maybe, maybe not.

Is this your first choice of campus?
- Yes.

Why or why not?
- Mainly because my mom already bought a house near UP Min. Another reason is that, UP Dil costs much much more than UP Min's tuition fees. Pahamak na TOFI.

San-san ka nag-apply na colleges/universities?
- Sa UP lang. Ewan ko din kung bakit. Parang napaka-confident ko noh?

Dumadalaw ka pa ba sa UP or dadalaw ka pa ba kahit grad ka na?
- Oo, why not. OK din kasi dun, di ka mahahalatang outsider.

The best thing about UP?
- No class on mondays. :)

What do you miss or you're going to miss?
- Ate Sabing's, bluebooks, freedom walls, TuronTo, the Wildlife(!) Lab, the Iska life.

Fave place mo do'n? Bakit yun?
- Soccer field. Kasi bukod sa soccer, marami pa kaming nagagawang kalokohan dun.

Fave day mo? Why?
- monday. kasi nga walang pasok.

Fave building? Why?
- CSM (College of Science and Mathematics), kasi dun ang buhay ko. char.

Least fave building? Why?
- As if naman ang daming buildings dun. Pero ayoko nung Himati Office, kasi marami akong nakikitang ahas malapit dun. Tsk tsk tsk.

Memorize mo ba yung UP Hymn?
- `Di masyado.

Paborito mong prof?
- Sir Rasco!

Bakit siya/sila?
- Kasi matalinong bata eh. Suuuper.

Pinaka-ayaw mong prof?
- Ms. Medicine. :)

Bakit siya?
- Kasi naman eh, she makes things oh-so complicated.

Naglalakad ka ba lagi?
- AS IN.

Madalas ka ba sa lib pag vacant mo?
- Hindi masyado, inaabutan lang ako ng antok dun. Malamig kasi.

Sino chancellor sa UP?
- Si Dr. Gilda Carballo-Rivero po.

If you weren't in UP, nasaan ka?
- Aba, ewan.

Sa tingin mo, malaki ba ang maitutulong ng UP sayo?
- Oo naman. Marami kasing 'bias' sa mundong ito. Hehe joke lang.

Nagchi-cheer ka ba ng "Go UP!!"?
- Sa UAAP cheerdance. hehe

Anong masasabi mo kay Oble?
- Naked and sacred. :)

Gano ka na katagal nagaaral sa UP?
- two and a half semesters, and one summer class na.

Ano masasabi mo sa mga kaklase mo?
- Hindi ko sila maintindihan.

Eh sa classroom niyo?
- Oh c'mon, andami ko pong classrooms.

Anong floor classroom niyo?
- first, second, underground, floating, etc.

San ka madalas kumakain?
- Kina Mana Lydia at sa TuronTo.

Ano inoorder mo dun?
- Sa first, demure na lunch. Sa second, turon, banana cue, at kahit anong maisipan kong papakin.

Kumakain ka ba ng street food sa labas ng campus?
- Minsan, pag gusto ko ng amoeba sa tiyan. =p

Eh anong college ang may pinakamagandang bldg?
- CHSS. Bago kasi.

Inggit ka naman?
- Slight.

May PE ka pa ba?
- Wala! T.T Leche kasi yung Chem ko na class, pina drop ba naman ako ng PE. Haay naku.

Kung meron, ano un?
- :-|

Masaya ka naman ba sa PE mo?
- Oo, nung nag table tennis ako, kasi naka-uno. Haha

Bayad ka na ba sa tuition?
- Oo.

Bumili ka na ba ng UP jacket?
- Hindi, bakit, bibilhan mo ako?

May balak?
- Ikaw, meron?? Sige na, masaya yan. :)

Eh ung t-shirts?
- Wala din, kahit PE shirt.

May balak ka rin?
- Meron sana. Pero pangit kasi ang designs.

Nakapagpa-picture ka na ba kay Oble?
- Aba nakakatakot yun!

Ilang beses na?
- . . .

Bakit kaya madaming turista dumadayo sa campus natin?
- Kasi...bago sa kanilang paningin??

Natry mo na bang dasalan mga rebulto sa UP?
- Di pa. Nakakapagpataas ba sila ng grades?

CS/US ka ba?
- Oo. [libre ang mangarap]

May org ka ba?
- Meron.

Kung meron, ano/anu-ano? Kung wala, bakit wala?
- BioS [Biology Society], tsaka ADBM [Association of Davao Biology Majors].

May balak ka pa bang sumali sa ibang org? Ano/anu-ano?
- Oo, sa isang kilalang Greek letter society sana, pero di ako sure. Dun nalang sa isa.

not...

2008-08-20T00:16:00.004+08:00

I am not good at soccer. I am not good at volleyball. Neither do I play basketball, badminton, tennis, name it. My Tagalog sucks as hell. I don't and can't play the guitar. I am WEAK. I am not always in tiptop shape. My hair is just messy. I am not as brilliant as you might think. I am neither smart nor bright. I have many secrets and I'm not telling anybody. I am a LOSER at almost everything.

You see, I'm trying here. I'm trying to please you so I could keep up to you, though you are oblivious of this f***ing competition.

I wish I was your own perspective of PERFECT. But I'm sorry, this is all I am and that's all I can give.

**i am just ranting..i hope.**

photograph.

2008-08-18T00:16:00.006+08:00

I have been mumbling "tough shit" for the nth time now. I don't know how but it just popped out of my mind this morning.

For the first time, I missed Tagum City. It's been quite a time since I last visited my hometown (two months ago, perhaps). There are too many things that I remember, at the same pace at how I try to forget the pain. Oh sheep, I'm starting to get mushy again.

My Tagum City memories are captured in three things.
1. Mahiwagang Kaldero. We have this metal rice pot back in Tagum that's somehow 'magical'. It's small (just like the size of a medium Selecta tub) and the fullest you can cook is about 5 cups of rice. Whenever we start to eat cooked rice from it, from the mere fact that are four hungry mouths at home, matagal talaga siya nauubos. I just can't imagine how a small kaldero can feed four big eaters and still have something left for later meals. Hmmm...

2. Roofdeck. Aligned with the gutter of our unpainted roof is a deck. It's really a simple deck--unadorned and not much frills but the foliage of our tall palm tree and the chips and cracks of the cement courtesy of acid rains and the sun. Our roofdeck became a witness to our many rendezvous: tambayan and inuman with classmates, family moonlight dinners, open fora with friends, backstabbing sessions, and just plain lying-on-my-back-watching-the-stars mode. Ahlaveet. I miss it.

3. Roadtrip. Tagum is a small city, but we still enjoy the roads and make fun out of it. My classmates had cars back then, and if the parents would let them, we would drive our asses off to anywhere the steering wheel takes us. We made the most of what we had. Even if we didn't have 'nuff money, we still get to sneak to out to the beach or stop at a dead street and just laugh the night out. We had so much fun even though we anticipate the eternal sermons the following morning.

We knew we didn't have much time. We don't even know where the others are right now. Somehow, the fun times keep flashing on our minds because we know we're coming back.

I missed my friends. I miss our house. I miss Tagum.

And suddenly, after some time of sharing a piece of my life with you, I remembered I still have to work on those bottle caps. Mine didn't even got close to 300 pieces.

I need some more. And that's...tough shit.

just got botanical.

2008-08-06T21:19:00.004+08:00

It all started with this piece of junk, er, wood hanging on two metal wires in our backyard. I was washing my clothes and I saw those miniature 'things' again.

Fortunate enough, our camera was taking its vacation here (yay!). So I took the liberty of taking shots of these organisms that we had discussed in Botany 3.

And oh, they're clickable.

Somehow, I got bored so I made sense of the gunky backyard that we had.

...and this is me a la Devon Aoki.

Damn, I am really not a good subject for my photos.

we are like the sun and moon chasing each other around.

2008-07-30T10:38:00.003+08:00

kung kelan ako gising, dun ka tulog..
kung kelan naman ako tulog, dun ka naman gising.

ano pa kaya ang mangyayari sa atin?

diabetes?

2008-07-27T20:51:00.004+08:00

ok, so what do you call a person who gets so addicted to sweets for a day? c'mon, tell me.

for breakfast, I had four whole pieces of Krispy Kreme Doughnuts (na pasalubong ni Mama from Manila).
5 slices of minatamis na saging.
hot chocolate na may honey (!)
4 huge pieces of Durian.
2 cups of mashed durian (ibang version pa ito sa nakasulat sa taas).
chocolate-covered raisins.
two glasses of Coke.

these are all i had for the day. yes, yan lang! so...magkaka-diabetes na kaya ako??

four.

2008-07-15T21:33:00.003+08:00

RULE:

What you are supposed to do… and please don’t spoil the fun… Click copy/paste, delete my answers, type in your answers and tag 4 people in your lists!

(A) Four places I go over and over:
- UP
- harap ng computer
- bedroom
- harap ng ref

(B) Four people who e-mail me regularly:
- gurlzgroup members
- yung tao sa multiply
- yung tao sa fs
- spammers

(C) Four of my favorite places to eat?
- sa porch/lanai/whatever namin
- McDonalds
- Chippens
- Buffet Palace

(D) Four places I’d rather be?
- bedroom..para matulog.
- Buffet Palace ulit..para kumain, siyempre.
- Australia..dahil gusto ko lang.
- Pilipinas..dahil mas gusto ko.

E) Four people I think will respond:
- July
- Shimi
- Algene
- Kat

(F) Four TV shows I could watch over and over:
- Grey's Anatomy
- Gossip Girl
- Barefoot Contessa
- yung mga "As Seen On TV" stuff. haha.

**Yun lang. Bored ako eh. May exam pa ako bukas. Haha.

wala napud ko nagtarong ug skwela.

2008-07-12T17:41:00.003+08:00

Translation: tinatamad ako. (hehe..)

UNfinished lab reports.
UNread notes.
Missed assignments.
Cramming at 5 minutes before a quiz.
Absent-minded.
Not knowing what to do.

What's with first semesters? Why do I easily get bored during this time? Frankly speaking, I really have NO idea.

I have three exams next week (it was supposed to be four but the teacher moved the exam schedule) and I am ONLINE. How's that?!

Jeez. This kinda brings guilt. I'm really going to study now...right now.

you make me love you.

2008-07-09T22:15:00.005+08:00

Long time no post again. I've been really busy with school right now, especially that I have to catch up fast on my readings. I have FOUR hideous exams next week and they indeed put up pressure!

So I've listened to some good music a few days ago when I was terribly sick (my temperature reached 40C, how's that) and I have nothing to do at all. My mom won't allow me to do anything strenuous 'cause I might have relapses, she said. I came across this pop song of a famous girl in pop town. I've looked at the lyrics and it somehow made sense to me, meaning that it had something to do with my life lately. Yeah, I know it's a bit corny to post lyrics, but I'll do it anyway.

7 Things
Miley Cyrus

I probably shouldn't say this
But at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we shared
It was awesome but we lost it
It's not possible for me not to care
And now we're standing in the rain
But nothing's ever gonna change until you hear
My dear

Chorus:
The seven things I hate about you
The seven things I hate about you
Oh you
You're vain, your games
You're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh
You make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
Your friends they're jerks
When you act like them
Just to know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the seventh thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

It's awkward and silent
As I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now
Your sincere apology
When you mean it I'll believe it
If you text it I'll delete it
Let's be clear
Oh, I'm not coming back
You're taking seven steps here

(Chorus)

And compared to all the great things
That would take too long to write
I probably should mention the seven that I like

The seven things I like about you
Your hair, your eyes
Your old Levis
When we kiss I'm hypnotized
You make me laugh, you make me cry
But I guess that's both I'll have to buy
Your hand in mine
When we're intertwined
Everything's alright
I wanna be with the one I know
And the seventh thing I like the most that you do
You make me love you ...

It's sad but it's kind of a happy song too. I don't know, I'm just...feeling it.

49ers.

2008-06-27T23:13:00.001+08:00

1. Who's on your mind?

si toooooot.

2. Where is your crush right now?

ewan ko ba sa kanya.

3. Have you ever been in a basement?

of course! ikaw, have you?

4. Which shoe do you put on first?

hala...nice question. oo nga, which one nga ba?? sa right siguro.

5. What is the status of you and the last person you kissed?

single. last person i kissed? sarili ko.

6. Do you get distracted easily?

depends on the distraction.

7. What's the last text you received say?

naa na mi sa entrance..

8. What does that last text say that you sent?

g'nyt!

9. Have you ever kissed anyone named Amanda?

oo, nung lalake pa ako. joke!

10. First time you kissed the last person you kissed?

nung bata pa siya.

11. What was your childhood nickname?

marami. my lola calls me "lalai", my friends call me "balai" (jeez), my mom calls me "lang", my tita calls me "bloo". pili ka lang.

12. What would you want to change about your life right now?

ang walang kwenta kong lovelife! sana 'di nalang ako nagkaroon nun.

13. How do you feel about public displays of affection?

before, disagree talaga ako. ngayon kay...haha depende. wag naman yung mag french in public. eww what the hell...

14. What's the weirdest thing you have done while driving?

first time ko na 42.5% ako ang nag nagdrive, well, nakasagasa lang naman ako ng pusa.

15. Have you ever bitten your nails?

many times! sus ui, childhood and all.

16. Do you live alone?

no. how i wish.

17. Do you smoke?

it depends. haha. hindi na ui, noon lang, nung lalake pa ako. LOL.

18. Can you keep a secret?

of course i can! as long as you could keep my secrets too.

19. What was the best year of your life?

meron ba??

20. Do you have any strange phobias?

meron! i don't know how it's called, but i don't like anything sharp that is pointing towards me. may flashback thingy na nangyayari tapos sumasakit ang ulo ko. perfect talaga.

21. Your favorite romantic movie?

a walk to remember. dammit, i cried buckets.

22. Are you happy with your living arrangement?

slight.

23. Have you ever played Twister?

oh jeez. of course. who would ever forget the "bawdy" pose of lyle and ralph? nakakalat sa mga albums ng contacts ko girrrrrl.

24. Last thing received in the e-mail?

pictures of herons and ducks. booooring.

25. What color is your phone?

black. looks good.

26. Do you like your cell phone or do you want a new one?

new one! new one! i insist!!!

27. Do you have trust issues?

SUPER YES.

28. Do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?

no. really..do i??

29. Do you tend to rip the paper off water bottles?

sometimes.

30. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?

si...siya. whoever he is.

31. Do you like to cuddle?

laveeeet.

32. Have you ever hated someone, but ended up being friends with them?

yah! shocking nga eh.

33. What was the last advice someone gave you?

do it now. now is the right time. (unsolicited. i hated it actually.)

34. Have you ever hurt anyone when you were mad?

ay sus nagtanong ka pa.

35. Is it easier to forgive or forget?

forgive. you can easily say it, but with "forget"? naaah, sa utak na yan, masakit na, ang hirap pa talaga.

36. Do you give out second chances too easily?

i don't like the question.

37. What is the most important thing in any relationship?

trust, communication and understanding. (aba aba mukhang expert ah)

38. Kiss with your eyes open or closed?

closed ui! para dramang-drama ang ating.

39. Do you have a best friend?

ay, marami.

40. Do you trust people easily?

YES.

41. Would you live with someone without marrying them?

sure. heller?? di ko nga pinakasalan ang kuya ko pero nakatira pa rin kami sa iisang bahay.

42. Ever had plans and broke them?

ay sus, maraming marami.

43. Do you have a friend of the opposite sex that you talk to a lot? who?

si...siya.

44. Do you remember what you were like a year ago?

yes, why?

45. Have you ever had a dream about people you love dying?

yup, as in. masakit.

46. Who was the last person you cried in front of?

my brother, when we were watching a korean tearjerker film.

47. Have you ever shaved in the kitchen sink?

never! i don't shave my legs, nor my, ehem, mustache. hahaha

48. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?

many times.

49. Where did you last go?

C.R. man siguro.

eek! beware girls..

2008-06-22T06:17:00.006+08:00

When you are traveling to China, try to be careful when you are buying these colorful headbands down the road.

Why?

These headbands are made from used condoms and threads!

BEIJING (AFP) - Used condoms are being recycled into hair bands in southern China, threatening to spread sexually-transmittable diseases they were originally meant to prevent, state media reported Tuesday.

In the latest example of potentially harmful Chinese-made products, rubber hair bands have been found in local markets and beauty salons in Dongguan and Guangzhou cities in southern Guangdong province, China Daily newspaper said.

'These cheap and colourful rubber bands and hair ties sell well ... threatening the health of local people,' it said.

Despite being recycled, the hair bands could still contain bacteria and viruses, it said.

'People could be infected with AIDS, (genital) warts or other diseases if they hold the rubber bands or strings in their mouths while waving their hair into plaits or buns,' the paper quoted a local dermatologist who gave only his surname, Dong, as saying.

A bag of ten of the recycled bands sells for just 25 fen (three cents), much cheaper than others on the market, accounting for their popularity, the paper said.

A government official was quoted as saying recycling condoms was illegal.

China 's manufacturing industry has been repeatedly tarnished this year by a string of scandals involving shoddy or dangerous goods made for both domestic and foreign markets.

In response, it launched a public relations blitz this summer aimed at playing up efforts to strengthen monitoring systems.

*reposted from Gurlzgroup

blue.

2008-06-19T11:26:00.000+08:00

Two nights ago, for the longest time, I felt stupid again. It was my idea to talk but then I really didn't feel good during the process. I was like...shrinking.

Somehow, when I woke up yesterday, I was at peace. Knowing that what I did was one way to save something meaningful and important to me, I was quite OK na rin. At least.

I know someday he will read this, so I'm gonna take this chance to say THANK YOU for everything. That "everything" means a lot. And of course, SORRY for what I did. Sana makabawi ako.

on being so clumsy.

2008-06-16T02:28:00.000+08:00

I can't sleep.

Wait, no. I was sleeping earlier at around 8pm then I woke up at 1am. Usually, by this hour (3am), I feel sleepy again. But no, i'm not. Something's bothering me.

I am downloading yet another another online RPG, Cabal Online. I heard that this is a really cool RPG with high-end graphics way, way better than Flyff (But I love Flyff. Haha). And I don't know if I could still play the game now that summer is over. The downloader says it has ONLY completed 18% of the file, and has SEVEN more hours to go! And I guess it would end by, hmmm, 9:45 am, perhaps? Great, how I wish my brother would still be sleeping by that time. Anyhow, the download is not the culprit of my being sleepless.

Yesterday, when I posted this sh*tty thing about someone, I forgot, er, TOTALLY forgot that my Blogger posts are auto-imported to my Multiply account. When I logged in to the former, my Inbox says: "One reply to your posts". I couldn't recall posting in Multiply but nevertheless I clicked the link, thinking that it was an older post. But what the heck, I saw a post entitled "A Very Big Problem" right before my huge eyes. As you can see, it has the same title as the post before this one. And yes, it is exactly the same post. My heart thumped a big thump, and it was beating real fast. The post had caused quite a stir on my Multiply life. I found three comments from persons who should not be commenting on that. The real deal was this: I made that post to just ease away the pain. My blog has become my best friend who "listens" but doesn't give pieces of advice when I don't need them (which is also the thing I love about my real friends). Since not many people read my blog, I thought it was safe. I've somehow learned to share my problems, but not to people. Not yet. I still believe in hiding.

D*mn it (yes, I am cursing). Big shame on Geek Chic. There's really nothing that I can do about it now, since most of my contacts have read it already. I'm thinking of deleting it, but not now so it won't be obvious. Move on gurrrl...

OK, so I got another problem hanging. There's this "someone" (again) who has been acting cold to me since 32 hours ago. I really am sensitive and I can feel that there must be something wrong. It's a bigger problem (with a littler description, haha). I have a bit of an idea why this "someone" was acting strange and I hope I could explain everything well.

Sigh, my life is such a mess.

We all go through life like bulls in a china shop. A chip here, a crack there. Doing damage to ourselves, to other people. The problem is trying to figure out how to control the damage we've done, or that's been done to us. Sometimes the damage catches us by surprise. Sometimes we think we can fix the damage. And sometimes the damage is something we can't even see.

Meredith, Grey's Anatomy

a very big problem.

2008-06-15T04:06:00.000+08:00

I'm trying.
I'm trying to help you forget me.
But whenever I do, you always get closer and closer and closer...

So how can I stay away?

nananawagan si inna..

2008-06-13T00:32:00.000+08:00

sabi niya..

huwaah. miss ko na ang buong bio.. as in.. kahit naka-meet ako ng new friends, kayo pa rin naiisip ko.. yung time noong una nating pagkikita, noong mga mata natin ay nagkatinginan.. iniisip kung sino ang magiging bloc2 leader natin.. bwahahahaha:)) xet! the days bai!!!! ahahahaha:))
huwaah. send my love to all biopipz jan!
as in, send mo jud ah.. to all networks.. ahahaha:))

cursed.

2008-06-11T18:17:00.000+08:00

Bad day again. (Wahaha, so about bad days lang talaga ang ipost ko. Why not. And nasabi ko na ito sa iba, but I just want to scream my angst here instead of eating a bar of chocolate.)

My plans were shattered into pieces again. The Culprit?? CHEM 16. Our beloved teachers changed our 8:30-10am WF schedule to 7-8:30 WF. Perfect 'coz it's a sure conflict with my PE 1 class, a subject that I've been patiently waiting for for two semesters. But what can I do? Alangan naman ipagpalit ko ang PE 1 sa CHEM 16 which, by the way, is a super stupid idea.

So, of course, I need to change my matriculation for this sem.

One Subject + One nadamay lang na subject = Tragedy.

Ok na sana when Ma'am Jackie said that there is still an available PE 1 class for the allotted CHEM 16 schedule (8:30-9:30 am), which means I only have to change the schedules of my PE 1 and CHEM 16 class. Na-relieve na sana ako eh. But after wasting PhP40.00 for habal-habal fare from CSM to HKC and vice versa (twice pa), Ma'am RR Baldo said, "PE 1 for 8:30 WF? Ay wala, na-dissolve na siya". Ang sakit ng quarenta pesos na nagastos ko para magpapirma at sabihan lang ng ganun. Perfect again.

So there went my tragic life. My whole afternoon was terrible. Dagdag mo pa ang napakalakas na ulan, which almost made me want to cry.

I realized PE 1 is a curse for me. Ako lang ang naiba nung first sem of 2007-2008, I had PE 2 (Table Tennis) while the rest of my batchmates were either PE 1 or PFD (Phil. Folk Dance). My classmates who had PFD which is also PE 2 had their chance to take PE 1 this sem. Second Sem, wala pa rin, because of conflicting "important" subjects.

This time, wala nanaman akong PE 1...

I know it's a tad too little thing to be sad about. It's just that I don't want to have PE subjects on my junior year, NSTP nalang sana. PE should be over by my sophomore year.

Not having PE class for one semester is a big hindrance to my plans...

It's just that I promised myself na babawi na talaga ako this time.

Hahai, how I wish I was a regular student. It's all my fault.

Ba't kasi...

Dreams and Heartaches

saw this somewhere && i just had to repost

:)

Hello there, do you need to be a University of the Philippines student/alumna/teacher for you to get accepted on RareJob? Can't other schools apply?

how many days do i have to wait for an interview?..because i alredy registered about a week ago. I just badly needed a part time, I hope that this question of mine will be answered soon. Thanks.

should i? or not? what?!

note to self

there is such a thing as...

busy!

Oooh La La

drying the tears that never came out.

Face and Health

Love can be so boring.

formspring.me

This One's For You

formspring.me

formspring.me

Cheap Thrills! :D

formspring.me

Katy Deschanel!

Untitled

QOTD #2

GPOYW!

500 Days of Summer

Things I'll Never Say

QOTD #1

new year's resolutions are so overrated.

i guess this belongs to YOU.

and it was all yellow.

Pic of the Day #2

free hugs day!

In Me, Nothing is Extinguished

Pic of the Day

tsk.

semBROKE

Detoxify!

Warm Up!

can't wait for sembreak!

Keeps Getting Better

Blinded.

Just when it's nearly over..

Seedlings Aren't Planted Too Close

Thought to Ponder

my one and only You.

Here Again

rants.

addiction.

Summer LSS #1

back to the place where I belong

My UP Life: Confessions and Revelations

Flower Power

depression could kill.

sixty days...love it or hate it.

Too Many Mistakes...

Review: Palmer's Cocoa Butter Formula with Vitamin E

I Am a Busy Bee

bitterness and ecstasy

Love is just a lie

Review: The Pink Panther 2

Baga jud?

*ting* shopping!

guess it's easier for you to swallow if i sat and smiled.

on skipping classes and tonsillitis.

RareJob: Get Paid at Home!

a temporary madness

gotta get through this.

Bloggers Unite for Refugees

you know you love me.

one reason to view my blog history

promise, i won't rant.

The Elements of Style

here tonight.

we're feeling so good, just the way that we would.

the unfathomable.

ONE.

5, 4, 3, 2...

seven.........six...........

...nine...eight.....

ten.

miss you, more than you'll ever know.

ting shopping!