Seedlings Aren't Planted Too Close

While I was writing this post (and by writing, I mean pen and paper), I realized I'll be alone for most of this semester. Imagine, it has been two weeks already at ngayon ko lang narealize ito. Andami talagang realizations na nangyayari pag nakaupo ako dito sa isa sa mga Coke huts sa labas ng canteen namin sa CSM. I'm used to being alone, but there really are times when you feel like having at least one friend to accompany you. Kahit na katabi lang, kahit walang usap-usap, okay na. But I think there is still a huge advantage. As what my friend told me,

"being alone gives you time to grow"

And as they say misery loves company, ayun na nga. My misery is accompanied by my terrible schedule that looked like this:


Andaming empty spaces which means, more time of being emo and doing nothing but to stare at the people around me. Bestfriends ko nanaman ang canteen at atrium. Swerte ko nalang if there's still a vacant slot in the Internet Kiosk so that I could bore myself with the Web. Naku, grabe siguro ang growth ko nito at the end of the semester.

Ting! May isang advantage pa pala akong naisip. I'll be able to finish my thesis outline in a swift. Andaming time, ang haba ng panahon, promise. At least, when I enroll in Bio 200 next semester, nagrerelax na lang siguro ako and I'll be waiting for my defense na lang. Sana nga...*crosses fingers*

I saw this video on Youtube. I don't know why the user named it as "Trailer" when it's supposed to be a production video. No offense meant, but, it's not a movie, so it shouldn't be a trailer of some sort. Anyway, this vid is about my hometown, Tagum City. And whoa! ang galing ng pagkagawa. Makes me proud. I like how the sound effects go together with the movements especially in the Musikahan part. Sana makahanap ako ng video effects like what's shown there. Ayan tuloy, na-miss ko nanaman ang Tagum T___T Anyway, enjoy the video!

Thought to Ponder

While I was waiting for a tricycle on the corner of the bakery in our area, I heard a baker's helper complain:

"Alam mo pare, nagsisisi ako. Sana umayos nalang ako nung nag-aaral pa ako. Sana hindi na lang ako nagbulakbol. Kung nag-aral lang ako ng mabuti, eh di sana hindi ako nagmamasa lang ng tinapay ngayon..."

a couple of seconds later, my world became silent. That hit me.

my one and only You.

"I take one step away...

...then I find myself coming back to You..."

Last night, I once again attended a Praise and Worship concert of my friend's prayer group called reGeneration. She didn't actually invite me to the event, but there were posters on the Freedom Wall of my school (which made me curious, too, because I didn't know that there is a reGeneration member from UP). Their theme for that night was "Discover your First Love". As usual, the reGeneration had a wonderful video production for an intro, but anyway, I'm not going to do a review here about the concert.


It's just that...I miss Him. I really do. Things like the concert I attended draws me closer to Him, and even though there are a lot problems boggling my mind right now, I could still feel serenity and happiness inside me, and I know for sure it's because of Him. I have always been thankful of Him for being my "best-est" friend.

Oh, by the way, they had a remake of the drama presented by another worship group where it shows how a person is drawn farther away from God through earthly "goods" and how that person came back again into His arms.

Sigh, that song by Lifehouse called Everything still makes me cry.

Here Again

I'm baaaaaaack!
After almost a month of hiatus, I'm free again. Well, almost. :D

rants.

I don't know where to start. I just felt the urge to write tonight and I'm looking for the perfect intro, but I can't so we'll just let it flow.

I have been busy. Yes, my to-do list is out and about again. "Kelan ka pa ba `di naging busy, ha?", my friends would tell me and I would just laugh. Well, what can I do? Eh sa gusto nilang gawin ko sila eh. Referring to chores. :D

This is the bulk of my summer, I guess. Less parties, less nightouts, less trips, less everything. Again, what can I do? We don't have a helper, so I do most of the chores. I don't have money, so I work. And...I don't have anyone who could help me out with my "something" on May, so I'm completely hands-on with every little detail. Well, some of my friends offered help, but, I didn't accept them. Some details just might be overlooked and I hate it when things don't go my way...

One more thing...I desperately miss my hometown. This city that I live in now doesn't feel as warm and as welcoming as TC. My hometown is where I met the people who would give you the definition of friends. I just miss them. Every moment I look at our photos makes me want to go back through time...when my house would be filled with heaves of laughter during movie marathon afternoons...Friday nights spent driving out in the streets...or the time when we would head straight to the beach penniless. I miss them and I hate it.

And then I pinch myself back to reality, which, is the part that uhm, sucked. This is not who I used be. I've become someone else: more bizarre, less vulnerable. I shouldn't have known until someone slapped it straight to my face. I'm just going through a phase. I hope.

Ang gulo ng post ko ngayon noh? Yun na nga yung point. Magulo.

addiction.

It's 1:48 AM and I'm still not hitting the sack. I should be sleeping now, right? I'm tired but I'm stuck in front of the Pc. My lips are dry and pale already. Tsk tsk this is getting worse. I better stop.

Summer LSS #1

Just wanna share with you one of the reasons why I find comfort in music.
I like Nina's version better but I couldn't find it in Imeem.

Steep (Lauren Christy) - Jez Salcedo

back to the place where I belong

It's always a nice feeling to wake up to a beautiful sunrise, pack my things and go to the place I have loved for a lifetime. The only place where I feel very welcome, and even though it's a small city, it's big enough for me and my friends.

Yes, I'm going home. :)

My UP Life: Confessions and Revelations

I got this mantra from July.

Worried about getting bullied by fratmen or getting killed in a riot.
No and maybe, yes. :D

Got bullied by fratmen or was killed in a riot.
Uhm...haha :D

Witnessed a riot.
Yes, not in school though.

Made friends with a teacher.
I think so, or maybe I was just assuming?! ha ha.

Was tricked as a freshman into attending a rally / prayer meeting.
Yes, a rally! It was my first time, and it was funny `coz there was only a few students there. We (with some of my batchmates) were just laughing because it was so scripted and whatever.

Wore red or black on one of those wear red or wear black days.
Yes, I did.

Wore red on Valentine’s Day.
Of course. I'm a sucker for Valentine's. Ha ha and I love red.

Wore black on Valentine's Day.
For the past two Valentine's Days in UP, I think I didn't.

Learned UP Naming Mahal.
Wholeheartedly? Not yet. :(

Was an RA (registration assistant) or SA.
No.

Lied or begged to an RA for a slot in class.
Never.

Participated in a there's-only-one-more- slot-are you-feeling- lucky?
Yes! ha ha and I even urged the teacher to give me a slot in his PE class even though it's already full.

Jogged around the campus.
No, just around the soccer field.

Knew at least one fotox lady, manong, or technician by name.
Yes! Madam X and Tiburcia.

Attended university level graduation.
No.

Got an activist for a teacher.
Maybe.

Went stargazing.
At school? Yup.

Slept in the lib.
Yes! Ha ha malamig eh.

Struck up a conversation with a taong grasa.
I've never seen a taong grasa in our campus.

Wrote to/for the Collegian.
No.

Seriously pondered about the identity/ies of the people described in Eksenang Peyups.
No.

Went to the chapel.
In UP? Really? We have one?!

Cut class with your block to watch a movie.
No. I don't cut class.

Went to a Freshman-only concert.
No, wala namang ganyan sa school eh.

Subsisted on just streetfood
Sure, a lot of times. :) It's cheaper.

Learned how to smoke.
HA HA :D

Went on an out-of-town trip with blockmates or orgmates.
A lot of times, for school trips.

Fell in love with a blockmate.
Blocmate talaga? No.

Fell in love with a professor.
Never.

Actually read the book you keep borrowing from the lib.
Yes. Duh, why would I even borrow it in the first place?!

Played cards during your free time.
Just recently! ha ha I learned Chikicha and Tong Its.

Dressed in business attire.
Yes, for defense.

Sumabit sa jeep.
Sure.

Got sung to or sung to someone in class during Valentine's day.
Not on Valentine's Day ;)

Watched the Lantern Parade.
Yes I did.

Helped out a total stranger.
Yup.

Helped out a total stranger because he/she was hot.
Ha ha funny and No.

Learned to stay awake for more than 24 or 48 hours straight.
No, I still can't do that. :(

Got bullied by fratmen and feeling cool wannabe people who were actually losers.
Ha ha :D

Took Wednesday and/or Saturday classes (for UPMin, Monday and/or Saturday siguro.hehe)
Yes, I did. I hate it. Ha ha

Got a boyfriend/girlfriend.
Yes, a girlfriend....what!! Kidding! Ha ha

Took time to read the vandalism in the CR.
I don't think there are even vandals in the CR.

Watched a sexy art film for any GE class.
Yes, I did. I actually liked that movie, not because it was sexy, but because of the plot.

Got held up or pickpocketed.
No. Sana hindi.

Felt depressed because you were not as good academically as you were in high school.
YES! totally. I'm a total loser in college. I miss my old self. :( But that 'old self' was a sad chapter in my life. Sigh.

Did a last minute paper.
A few times. Nale-late pa nga eh. :D

Had spent a lot for 1x1 ID pictures.
No, I have lots of 1x1 pics that I printed and they are ready to be used! ha ha

Got exempted from final exams.
Never. How I wish..

Got exempted from a final exam but still took it.
See previous ^

Got into at least one (org- or council-sponsored) adventure race.
Yes, but it was during our BioGenesis.

Knew where the best restrooms are on campus.
Yes.

Joined an org.
One: joined because it's a course org. Two: joined and quitted :D

Allowed yourself to make mistakes.
Damn, I always, always make mistakes.

Went to the gym in spite of having no PE class just to ogle varsity players/cute boys.
Not because of ogling, but I was trying to get into the varsity with another batchmate. Yeah, really, it was a desperate act.

Took summer classes.
Yes and loved it.

Admired the Oblation.
Uhm, yeah..

Made a video for a project.
No, my other groupmates (if in a group) would usually do it.

Had a crush on a teacher.
Yes! Ha ha

Had a teacher who had a crush on/tried to court you.
No, I don't think so.

Faked sickness to get an absence excused.
I faked sickness but I never bothered to get an excuse slip. Ha ha what's the point?!

Got your car scratched by one of those "Kuya bantayan ko kotse niyo" kids.
I don't even have a car! :(

Went to school in your crappiest yet most comfy clothes.
Yes, most of the time. Ha ha.

Learned how to use the Bayantel pay phones.
What are you talking about?!

Participated in school activities.
Of course.

Dated someone from UP.
Haha yes.

Learned how to beg for a higher grade.
Beg? Naku, kahit na magkanda bagsak2x ako, hindi ko talaga gagawin yan. (tsaka pag bumabagsak ako, di na ako nagpapakita sa teacher. ha ha)

Used your 6 allowable absences wisely.
Yes! ha ha bulakbol-er.

Lived in a dorm.
No.

Had the worst schedule.
Yes! I think I had the best schedule only once.

Not used up all 6 allowable absences.
Rarely. ha ha :D

Was active in your org.
Yes, I think so. :D

Got as many app forms as you can during the job fair.
I've never been to a job fair.

Learned how to cram.
Only once. I don't like cramming.

Sold tickets for (or watched) an org-sponsored movie premiere.
Yes. :D

Saved money to photocopy all of your seatmate's notes.
ha ha seriously?! No!

Had accidentally seen a make-out session.
Would want to..ha ha

Slept in class.
Yes!

Had mountains of "unused" sample exams and/or old testaments.
No.

Resolved to be "better this semester."
Always! and it would always result to the opposite.

Slept during a test.
Yes, most of the time!

Had groupmates from hell.
Yes!

Learned how to work with groupmates from hell.
Fortunately..

Practiced those UP cheers in the first meeting for PE class.
No..

Looked at microfilms in the library or poked through archives.
Slight. :D

Reserved a classroom, AVR, etc. for a class or org function.
No, they do.

Attended the UP Fair.
Yes! Ha ha and the latest one I attended was funny, there were only 10 people in the audience! ha ha

Went to a library other than your own college's to research.
Yes.

Lost a perfectly functioning umbrella.
No, I don't bring umbrellas to school.

Used consultation hours properly.
I don't usually consult.

Went to the Guidance Office for real, heart-to-heart guidance.
Yung sa freshmen thing lang.

Went to the infirmary.
Yeah, only because I need to accompany someone.

Attended class with a hangover.
No.

Drink beer or alcohol while inside UP grounds.
No, but I'd like to try that. Ha ha

Buy frogs for Bio class.
It's more fun to catch them by yourself, which was the thing that I did. :D

Maxed out on the 6 allowed unexcused absences but DID NOT drop.
Yes! haha

Wore slippers to school.
Of course.

Had a professor who smoked in class.
No. That'd be...uncool :D

Flower Power

Got this summer fashion tip from Style Bible.

This year, the summer season screams: floral!! From sun dresses and paisley tops to playful, girly pieces, it's all about those blooms, dahling. Check out these cute pieces I found whilst surfing:

T Cutout Monokini from Victoria's Secret Pink Line

Summer Night Maxi Dress from Forever 21

Strapless Smocked Dress from Victoria's Secret

Shimmer Flower Burnout Tank from Wetseal

Rose Print Dress from Forever 21

Paisley Halter One Piece from Ralph Lauren

Paisley Trimmed Dress from Forever 21

Painted Floral Chiffon Dress from Forever 21

Mix Floral Sundress from Forever 21

Halter Maxi Dress from Victoria's Secret

Erdem Fessonia Shift Dress from Barney's

Gauze Floral Top from Wetseal

Embroidered Dress from Victoria's Secret

Drape Front Tube Top from Wetseal

Dimension Shift Bikini from Free People

Take a cue from our favorite Gossip Girl fashionistas! Blair Waldorf is so cute in a Peonie Print Silk Lam Halter Neck Bubble Dress from Collette Dinnigan

As seen on the first episode of Season 2: Blair is in a Garden Party Dress from Alice + Olivia while Serena is in a Geometric Tank Dress from Vena Cava

Aztec Gardens Tank from Free People

Annabeth Cotton Silk Dress from Ralph Lauren

I soooo love summer! Can't wait to get these cute prints. :D